Finding you.. again

Today is a day of worship

Which is full of guile and elevation,

praise God and give the Father thanks

through tremors once faced and when our heart truly sank.

trauma is part of life

picking yourself up is part of the journey,

by the grace of the Father you shall come out the other end, much more sturdy.

Life has challenges

people are put in places to reach out to you,

some are more self absorbed, beginning with the sentence with the sentence ‘i’,

when It’s actually it’s ‘we’ that’s where God’s children sigh.

Love and prayer daily to the higher power,

that’s The recovery journey we have all been faced,

you are on this quest to find out something new

yet the presence of God is what we all look to pursue.

Be in that safe space

the world we shall venture towards and find inner peace,

the eyes now see as the words fallen on my ears which can no longer imprison my inner beast.

Jason

5th October 2025

Yiayia Florenza (Nan)❤️🙏🏽

Wow, it’s been 31 years and counting since you left,

you are with some good company up in heaven, that’s why I choose to humorously bereft.

You ‘are’ amazing;

you see ‘are’ means you are still here,

your warmth and gentleness cannot be touched,

If I could be half the person you are that would mean so much.

I may hear a song and think of you

That didn’t happen today, my vibes are calm and relaxed,

this world is full of chaos, through politics and facts.

I describe you as kindness poured into a jar

your love was insurmountable and went tremendously far.

You giving gave me hope

And there is no one around today who matches your kindness and love,

today I am confronted with debates, so I automatically think of you, as this negativity can be shoved.

“Yiayia Florenza… god bless you and miss you xxx”

Jason

4th October 2025

Legacy that’s alive

He told me off when I came home late,

I miss you every day Dad

but then again, you have no more pain to endure and you won’t have any bills to pay again.

Dear Mr Andrews

I miss you more than you know,

yet, we all speak the obvious when people leave this earth,

they are in a safer place and have given so much through God’s powerful worth.

God decides the time when you finally leave,

I know this is a contentious subject,

Then again I am not too worried as the Dad I love is no longer here,

As I know he is watching over his loved ones, so there’s nothing else to fear.

My Dad found me be a pain,

but trust me, I shall leave my legacy behind,

speaking of God’s gift, these words are not aimed to bind.

Jason

4th October 2025

Unexpected hypo

People say: “are you meant to eat that?”

don’t we as service users of diabetes struggle enough?

the hypos are quite awkward and are exceptionally tough.

I hate this condition,

And scared I won’t be protected,

people can’t support my struggles

compassion just add to the discombobulated muddles.

These hypos and counting carbs is the ultimate bane,

Imagine, once if you were diagnosed with this condition, your life expectancy would be 6-12 months, well that’s insane!

I count my blessings insulin is created,

but living with it I gave often hated.

I’ve often wanted people to leave me alone, when hypos hit the body and mind,

I struggle endlessly, and scared one day I shall become blind.

I live with calm

and others says I am not, what do they know, they don’t live with an auto-deficiency attack

I pray, as I know my stubbornness is my guide… and shan’t lack.

”living with diabetes ”

Jason

4th October 2025

Exercise and faith

Keep trying

never lose hope,

I am praying for you with this prayer

believing the higher power is everywhere.

Exercise with your heart,

keep going to get that sweat out,

you shall feel better for it when you start to achieve,

As there is a correlation from what we should spiritually believe.

Talk to those you choose to speak too,

avoidance to speak to those who do not provide you to discuss in an safe space,

I want to speak as I find, so the right people need to be in place.

So train, exercise with a community that love the spirit in the sky,

the exalted energy is a glorified lift, so don’t be ashamed if you decide to cry.

Jason

4th October 2025

Meeting you again…

It didn’t seem long ago we last spoke,

then you went to the heavens,

where some think they will and others won’t see you again,

know I shall see you in the afterlife.. my friend.

You were a sod🤣

a funny git indeed,

yet you all made us all feel safe, as there was a sense of security at the point we felt freed.

You were my friend

despite fighting all of the time due alcohol induced chats,

we were both wrong to have those kind of confrontations, where often I felt like a twat.

My eyes cry and laugh at the same when I think of thee,

your cheeky grin that made me smile, and how you made us feel free.

I love you Dad

you are right inside my heart,

Every time when I think of you, I know we shall have a life eternal and a fresh new start.

”Legend… Andy Pandey pudding and pie kissed the girls and made them cry… love you Dad a.k.a. Andreas Andrews xxxxx”

Jason

3rd October 2025

A day at a time

Be kind to yourself

sorry, life does get in the way,

attention span may be difficult to comprehend

staying around and throw in the work,

time you can’t claim back, or find when moments became berserk.

Are you okay?

I know you are here because you want to get better,

we are rooting for you, this game of addiction doesn’t come from rules through a letter.

You see, life takes over

frantic behaviour that you cannot control,

we are adults after all yet we have found ourselves in this lull.

We are encouraging each other on…

Is there a message there? Or something wrong?

I fear there is no magic solution to turn this wrong into a right,

we are simply praying for you… and that’s where things slowly…and gradually become bright.

Jason

4th October 2025