I would have pushed you away

I would have pushed you away, 

and what do you know anyway? 

As my best friend died, and months later I tried to be with him too. 

I thought drink was the solution; so that is what I thought I ought to do.

I just wanted a hug 

But instead I shouted or look to give a punch,

I was dying slowly, as the alcohol started to get too much.

People did love me, but I didn’t love me at all,

I started to blackout and hated me

Those who were chaotic I tried to avoid and refuse to see.

180 units of insulin I injected inside, 

I have said this countless times before as deceit caused me to lie.

The story today is covered by bites and bruises,

So follow the steps as It’s you that God chooses.

Jason 

12th August 2026