Incredible life. Thank you poem

​Thank you for my peace
And thank you for the laughs, 
Thank you I am sober, and towards myself I am no longer harsh. 

Thank you for creation
Thank you for this time with God, 
Thank you for this calmness instilled in my veins, 
Thank you that I have got rid of the madness and that I am no longer insane.

Thank you for your life
Thank you for the breath that fills the lungs, 
I want to be humble in my mercy through God and that I am no longer glum.

I am thank you for you reading this
You are helping me, an addict too
I am blessed to have today to aspire and serve
And just like you.. there is is plenty of worth.

Jason
20th May 2026

The Achilles heal of ‘perhaps’ and ‘maybe’

​There is no ‘perhaps’ or ‘maybe’ 
And I can tell you the reason why,
People either know, or they don’t, this things calls procrastination has to be told goodbye.

I won’t want to say. ‘Perhaps’ or ‘maybe’ because life just takes place
You can’t always be on guard; how do you take risks or evolve? Do you stagnant? As the art is to remove haste. 

Assertiveness is key
‘Maybe’ doesn’t make you feel free,
And neither does the feeling of ‘perhaps’, 
it just prolongs the conversation and for me personally can lead to relapse.

I don’t want to wonder ‘why’, I like to make decisions and face the consequences to the end
Am I being too limited with my approach, or should we look towards a hope in order to depend. 

You see, the ‘if’s and ‘but’s’ They do have a place to be said
But consequently the decision needs to be had, and these are the words along with the feelings which have been fed.

Jason
20th May 2026

Rebirth of an addict

​I am sure being an addict for you and me?
Did we ever want to put it on our C.V.?

You see, this is a new life
A freedom you could never comprehend, 
Life is challenging enough, and there is always your higher power to look time with to spend. 

Poems are my release,
What is yours? 
Moaning in the morning? Or energise yourself through tasks and chores.

You there is this thing called ‘love’
You know? That thing which makes the world go around, 
As long I am ‘reborn’ today, then I have truly found. 

Jason
20th May 2026

We are all so beautifully niche

​Life a puzzle which you constantly try to figure out
Some people get support and others get naught. 

You work your way through 
You learn the methods which keep you aligned, 
And to be honest there will be traumas, but after the pain you do eventually shine. 

If you are miserable, then what do you expect. 
You call yourselves ‘realists’ but nothing in life is a sure bet. 

Life is mystery, 
A place you haven’t been
taking that risk may work out, being scared is also part of the sin..

Jason
19th May 2026

The mind of this addict…

​I can’t proclaim to know it all, 
Falling into a trap, which you felt you were in control of, then you began to fall. 

For me it was grief, I lost someone close, 
That person was always there for me.. at this time I needed them the most.

Others said they said but didn’t put their neck on the line,
Sometimes harsh and tough words are mentioned, this tapestry of addiction is so difficult to define.

I can’t say I know it all
Neither could anyone else, 
They have touched on their higher power, and see a ‘new life’ which enriches new wealth. 

Some call it God and some call it a higher power
I struggle with this addiction but I do my best ‘just for today’ to try stay focus and live this day through 
This disease is so gentle and silent and sometimes there is nothing else you can do.

“My alcohol journey… plus many others”
Jason
19th May 2026

Balancing life…

​Evolution… or is there a solution on this path we walk
We seek, find, lose and gain 
It’s the higher power we look to keep us aligned and retain, 

I prefer to write, than to speak 
Discussion is important, but too much of it hurts the head, 
Information overload tires us out before we go to bed.

I look forward to seeing you, 
I prayer holds you each day,
Energy is a balancing act, I am discovering this at time of life.. nothing else I want to obey.

The mistakes have happened, 
The people reminder you… ‘I told you so’
Their perception is clearly correct, 
We live on an earth which we all know isn’t perfect. 

Jason
19th May 2026

Who said it would be easy?

​who said it would be easy?
Nothing worth fighting for will be give to you, 
Yes it’s your journey after all
Stay here and read this message, and start again to stand tall. 

None of us are designed to give up,
And I say this to myself too, 
I’ll practice what I pray,
Thank you God I am here for just today. 

So as I stand here 
At this unearthly hour at the gym when I could have stayed an extra hour in bed, 
I start my day with prayers and then practice what I’ve preached instead.

Jason
19th May 2026

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The walk which you don’t know where it leads.

​Some people call ‘life’ 
You grow and don’t look back, 
There are times you take risks and wondered if you slacked. 

You thought you sussed it out, but the fact this is a journey,
Ultimately you are a child of hope and graciously worthy.

People call it life, 
People call it love,
People call it being considerate when treated with kindness
If you say ‘goodbye’ to someone you love, then that is ultimate blindness.

You see, it’s about protection 
Keeping away from people who cause you harm, 
They may not think they are doing anything wrong,
But honestly, with them… you do not belong. 

I loved, 
Lost
Lived and survived
I am here for today only, do I need anymore to surmise.

You can question ‘perhaps’ and ‘why’
I don’t entertain those conversations, as before I go to bed I won’t answer that question.. and say ‘goodbye’.

Jason
18th May 2026

Life’s problems solved with a …… hug

​Good morning or good afternoon
How are you today?
Need for a hug, or should I stay away?

Perhaps a hug will help
Perhaps it won’t, 
The clinging of a difficult situation needs something in place in order to solve 
Then again, we are here only temporarily, so in reality there isn’t much to hold. 

A hug is a temporary solution 
It’s better than an argument, which is much better than retribution. 
So here I am today thanking for this life
I want to hold onto good people who I love and know are much more wise.

So here I stay hopeful
So here I stay strong,
Here I give you a hug when the world is crashing down,
I too have tried to take my life and wanted to drown.

I wasn’t suppose to go
That’s God’s calling for everyday,
He will decide when I ascend to my new home where I shall obey.

I love a hug
I remember I hugged my Dad, caused from an altercation caused by a pr..ck,
I am rather embrace with tears flowing down my cheek
I know there are good people out there.. for whom God chooses you when you are struggling and not at your peak.

Jason
18th May 2026 

That moment (The time Dad passed away)

​It was my turn to sleepover at the hospital that night,
We knew we were going to lose a great man, 
I laid next to him on his bed and played old 50s, 60s crooners songs
I felt unhappy but wanted the omnipresent Father to remove this pain from my Dad,
Unfortunately we all knew he weren’t going to make it…as we were inevitably feeling sad.

It was roughly 10pm, I kissed my Dad’s head and said ‘goodnight you git’,
I made sure the bed sheets were put over him, before I went to sleep on the bed next to him
We were all feeling a great loss awaiting to happen, 
We have all been there, facing a struggle you wished never took place
But I wanted God to take him because of the pain he endure.. and I don’t say those sort of words in haste.

I went to sleep 
And then at 00:03 hours I heard my name called,
“Jason”, I looked at the nurse… and knew he has passed,
I didn’t panic, I looked at my Dad and put my hand over his mouth, from there I felt his last breath
I contained my emotions and knew God took him away,
I was selfish… as dearly wanted him on this earth to stay. 

You see, my Dad was my protector from foes who didn’t have my back,
He didn’t take my shit too, and his determination never slacked. 

I called Mum and my 2 brothers to give the news, 
I was stunned as my Dad was a fighter, as I was deluded and even felt this fight he wasn’t able to lose.

I didn’t get on with Family members 
So I left the family home, 
We did our best to be a unit of support, but in truth I wanted to be alone.

I am entitled to my rights 
As I know people aren’t entirely bad, 
But connection is important for me.. and honoured to have him as my Dad.

I speak to him every day, my rock, my protector and the one who use to say “shut… your effing mouth, that’s nothing to do with you”
Boy, don’t I miss him now… as I felt my heart ripped out in episode that I inevitably lose.

The funeral took place on the 8th June 2023
My brother and I shared our thoughts about this great man who we gravely missed,
Dad, if you can hear me right now… remember my last act towards when I looked at your forehead and planted that good night kiss.

“I speak to those I want to speak to.. but this man.. I would miss until I’ll meet him one day in heaven. Love you Dad x 🙏🏽❤️”
Jason
18th May 2026

I say my affirmations each day

​I say my affirmations each and every day
It takes a moment of clarity from your higher power to keep the devil away.

You may hear words of wisdom 
And sometimes you won’t, 
You run away from a situation which is too much to bear,
Remember a prayer is not far away to openingly share. 

We all face trauma in our lives,
We are all on different walks which don’t align,
As long you say your basic affirmations.. you will be fine.

Start with prayer or medication 
Look to the people whom you can align to at that moment,
And lift yourself by looking positive words rise the soul
God gave you this life, and sometimes you have nowhere to go.

Jason
18th May 2026

Those who DON’T walk in your shoes.

​Some people try to make fun out of the situation 
Some people look to rile for their gain, 
Turn the other cheek, as this discussion doesn’t belong to you to maintain. 

People are there to rile, 
Some are funny, and you reverse it by laughing at their jest
Knowing you have a higher power that enables to you bring out your best. 

There are good people in this world we need to be around
They will pray for you, lift your soul,
And there are others, who dispute and simply need to go.

It’s about protecting your heart
You are not compelled to be around people you choose not to be with each day,
Remember, mediate, prayer to your higher power.. these’s are feelings which ought to stay.

Tomorrow is not promised 
But love will live forevermore, 
Do not compare yourself to others, that has no worth… actually shall make you sore.

Jason
18th May 2026

The weeks fly by..

​Where does the time go?
It doesn’t stay for long, 
Surround yourself with positive thinking and a great talk,
Along with that pray..and head off for a walk. 

Somethings aren’t for you
And some are when they do arrive,
You are only in this earth temporary, aren’t you glad to be alive? 

Where does the time go? 
I know it’s wasted half the time with negative chat, 
I am focusing on a prayer always, that’s where the flow should arrive at!

Walk away from a negative situations,
A place which leads to a ill fated debate, 
Just pray for the time to work for that moment, as your mental fortitude is always worth keeping in a humble state. 

Jason
18th May 2026

Chris… a blessing awaiting to happen

​Dear Chris
How are you today?
I pray to God for your recovery, or should I stay away?

I will say this, you are a laugh, 
A person who will pull through whatever he faces, 
Something so blessed and so embracing. 

You are a kind man, 
I can see that by the way you speak,
We are all on this journey to find ourselves… so be open for what you tend to seek.

You want right to be right, 
And avoid the other path, 
Don’t be too hard on yourself on this day which celebrates your birth,
through your higher power Chris.. there is plenty of worth.

“Happy Birthday Chris…. Keep going”
Jason
17th May 2026

Happy Birthday to a beautiful Drama Queen

​Dawn, where do I begin? 
Belated birthday greetings, so I shall start with the complimentary..  fun, loving and humble within.

You are joy and a great listener
You are blessing every single day, 
I thank your beautiful Mum and Nanny Tibbels, God bless their souls… they would be so proud 
You are hard working with a great personality… and I don’t care.. even if you are loud..!

Happy birthday my Cuz, 
You are a blessing whom we all love, 
There are showers of Angels protecting you, that you should never be able to shove.

You are a blessing my dear
These words are perfect to the mind you possess
You are humbled by grace and mercy… and deserve nothing less.

“Happy Birthday Dawn for the 16th May… Love ya x”
Jason
17th May 2026

Please don’t apologise❤️✍🏽

​Please don’t apologise 
You have done nothing wrong, 
I suppose I am asking for someone who I see as special to understand, 
As from this day I don’t know where these feelings shall land. 

I do suffer mental health
But I keep it close to my chest,
And yes I am very hard on myself, I’ve lived my entire life suited in a bullet proof vest. 

You are you
And I am me, 
I do want to grow with you, but what shall be will be. 

I try not to be a pessimist
And this is a ‘new journey’ that awaits, 
You have your own thing going on, and that too needs to take its course
But you are right about one thing, this road will be instructed by the Father 
And those roads I rather to seek acknowledging they shall become harder. 

I do try, all I want is connection with someone I love, 
If this isn’t reciprocated then that’s fine, I just need to live with all of the above!!

Jason
17th May 2026 

60 days … (Jay poem)

​Jay you are doing great!
You are trying your hardest and we see that, God is holding you close and that is the spirits caring, which I am sure you can relate. 

Jay, 60 days and counting…
You are a blessing to those that you see, 
You may not feel that at times, but when you put in the hard work.. you’ll capture a new form of free!

Jay you are loved and truly encouraged,
Keep going every step of the way, 
This is a new life for you my friend, as you already know this.. you only have today!

Be kind to yourself 
The first step is the hardness to do, 
Stay positive with a prayer in your heart, 
The light that awaits you shall merely become the beauty of a brand new start. 
“Jay you are doing great… love from Amy ❤️🙏🏽x”.
Jason
17th May 2026

No excuses.. just pray 🙏🏽

​No excuses for today
Can I pray for you, please allow me a few minute to stay.

I’ll be praying for you
Hope is always there, 
Sorry if you are experiencing troubles, I just pray you are able to endure the pain you’ve already declared. 

I am praying for your strength to restore,
There is a prayer waiting for you, to strengthen, which hits the centre of your core.

Remember, the ones lost are in a peaceful place, 
Prayers are humbling and are beautiful to embrace. 

No excuses to say ‘no’
This is your win, 
You are only guaranteed today
Connection through these words is a prayer that I choose to relay.

Jason
17th May 2026

I say goodnight…

​Goodnight my friend 
I will hopefully get up tomorrow, 
I simply pray to God if can I be with him today
He just say to me: ‘shut up’ and then tell me to go away.

Good night my friend 
I am not doing anything rash, 
I am not looking for any sympathy or worry to what’s on my mind, 
What can anyone do? I am not sure too… faith can be focused, even when you are blind.

I would say good night
I pray you will see me again, 
I am not going to do anything silly or with haste
I am looking to stay in God’s corner… that timely pace.

I am going to say Good night
I won’t drink, or take drugs ever again,
I am just going to close my eyes… and remember… I love you my learned friend..

Jason
16th May 2026

I sit here quietly… (Sobreity poem)

​I sit here quietly, wondering ‘how’, ‘what’ and ‘why”?
I have gone past the angst and ant anytime I can easily start to cry. 

People think they know what’s going on with my brain?
I fear they don’t have a clue,
I am trying to keep my sanity for one more day.. what else can I do?

I struggle with addictions all my life,
The gregarious nature of wanting more, more and more,
But the fact is I will fall down on my arms, hands and possibly face… wouldn’t that be sore?

I know I am here today, 18 months and one a week sober
I am learning a new life.. and if I need to, I shall go a little more slower.

Today is what’s promised 
And I thank God for that each day, 
I know in my heart I will enjoy this journey of sobriety more than I can ever know
As this is a passage of discovery, which each of us are able to grow…

Jason
16th May 2026

My Dad…. Andreas or Andy Pandy x

​It wasn’t so long ago since he passed. 
3 years and I still can’t believe he isn’t here?
I have moved away from my family, because I wanted a safe space to be near.

I miss the old sod,
He is the best friend I could have ever asked, 
However, we didn’t start on good terms, but that’s my problem trying to unmask.

He was funny, and said: ‘what’s his name’ quite a bit
He was fun loving and often a silly git. 

We miss him, 
He was a protector and loving friend. 

A husband, father and Uncle who knew how to take charge and reach out
His is an example for us all. Well… that’s what I prefer to vocalise and know about.

“Mr Andreas Andrews” you beautiful man. Still miss you… x”
Jason
16th May 2026

The mind of an addict

​You see, what must come up must come down,
You see the mind of an addict doesn’t see the consequences, so they often drown.

They wake up in the morning often look at denial, 
And to be honest with you this situation can last quite a while.

You put in the work as it comes from within,
I didn’t think I would be an addict, but who am I kidding?… this wasn’t a win.

I would have people say: “go on.. one more for the road.. that won’t hurt”
They don’t understand your body, and they don’t care because you do eventually disperse.

The mind of an addict is limitless 
They don't care what happens to them along the way, 
The level of control is nonexistent, and if you don’t understand, then read and learn more today.

The addict will grow and the disease is there
There is ‘no perhaps’ or ‘maybes’ because that doesn’t fit in our world,
We simply let it take over, as when we us our stomachs can’t take anymore, therefore we eventually hurled. 

Jason
16th May 2026

A day in the life of a diabetic

​Life is full of ups and downs
With this bloody condition you have moments you have no choice but to drown. 
With insulin dependant people, they don’t produce the insulin from the islet of a red blood cell which comes from the pancreas
And to be honest with you, the effects are quite cantankerous. 

I have told partners to leave me alone, 
They have loved me because I am on the ball, 
But the emotion diabetes comes with, you often tend to stall. 

The mind struggles 
Emotions runs high, 
And there’s are others with emotional that connect to yours
So you try to remain calm, but the chances of that hit the very core.

You see, I know we all have problems in our health
And as we get older things will enviably struggle, 
So you choose the people you want to be around because the vibe they give shall hit your soul
It doesn’t matter if it’s a parent or loved one, unfortunately you need to protect your ‘safe space’ and they need to go.

“Life living with type 1 diabetes”
Jason
16th May 2026

Starting the weekend

​wake up, put cold water on your face 
This is another weekend to enjoy,
Pray first, a default to employ. 

Wake up and say “thank you” 
Be polite and try to shine your light, 
God gave you this life to live
Just be polite and try not to overly give. 

Find your balance 
Find your peace within, 
Stop asking ‘why this?’ And ‘why that?’
Just ‘be still for a second’ there is plenty inside of you to reckon.

Remember you are blessed 
This may be your last day here,
So try to enjoy this weekend my friend as there’s plenty else to fear. 

Jason
16th May 2026

It’s almost time

​it’s almost that anniversary, the one you don’t want to remember 
Three years ago my friend passed away,
I feel melancholy still and a little sad as I recall he couldn’t stay.

I was numb
Didn’t know where to turn,
I asked God to take me away too, I didn’t want to be around others therefore I too looked to burn.

But the reality I am here today
Missing that old baster’ as I now refuse to fray.

It hurts when the17th May arrives 
I know today, God wants me here to continue writing poems in order to strive.

I miss you Andrea’s Andreo, my good ol ‘ Dad and dependable friend 
I talk to him everyday, as one day we all shall descend.

“One of May poems for the legend.., Dad xx’
Jason 
15th May 2026

Common sense

​You see they call it accountability, acknowledgement and other elaborate words
We call it in the past good old common sense’, those words I would often refer.

When words are articulately said 
When only mone needs to be mentioned,
I acknowledge the simplicity of the action that’s my comprehension.

They say common sense isn’t common
That’s because people need to say a lot when actually little needs to be said
So you aren’t saving your oxygen when a forlorn words are often unnecessary read.

I simply pray to God to ask why is this life is such a mess,
I get told to listen and pray, you don’t need anything less.

You see occum razor which means ‘the obvious answer is often the correct one’
I follow that guidance because I prefer not to say a lot of words when actually I rather say none .. 🤣

Jason
15th May 2026

Recovery never ends….

​Does recovery ever end
That depends on the situation to make amends. 

You see, the 12 steps are powerful
The S.M.A.R.T. programme also shows it worth, 
It depends on the individual, the language is hard and it does work. 

Recovery is my life now
I won’t want to taste a drink again, 
I just need to follow the programme, and allow my higher power to guide
this is putting in the hard work and avoid to subside.

Recovery is a journey 
Or a place you choose to be, 
It’s all about free will and the work you shall put in
Today you are blessed by saying a prayer through the process that you choose
This is for winners only .. as you have already experienced the moments when you once use to lose.

Jason
15th May 2026

The story… from and to..✍🏽

​So here today and ready to tell my story 
This is about me and you… I was chaos and felt I needed the chaos which came with glory..

You see., 5 years back I lost my job, and my son was put down and needed to do time
I was wondering where my life was going? What can I do, my brain wasn’t at all fine.

I was domestically abused and faced a torrential amount of hurt 
I lost myself and then my sister passed away, as honestly I didn’t know my worth.

You see, this can happen to you or I
What do I want to do, stay here on this broken earth or face the possibly to wanting to die. 

I found a way, only by the grace of God
My higher power kept me alive,
How on earth did I overcome these emotions in a period I didn’t want to survive.

I didn’t know how to relate to my friends and family, 
And that came with a cost, 
I just thank this programme that I just ‘have today’ and that my life is going in a direction which can no longer get lost. 

“Poem for Amy”
Jason
15th May 2026

Public speaking

​Public speaking is a joy to do, 
Some people are terrified, but I tend to see nothing in the room. 

Then there is the reality of seeing complete strangers in the mist, 
What are you going to do, make them like you? Are you taking the piss?

You speak your story and and simply speak your mind, 
You are are not getting into debate, that does nothing to me… I find?

I don’t mind speaking in public, I can’t be anyone else
I appreciate not all people will understand you, well that’s those people’s opinion which needs to stay on the shelf. 

I am me, that’s all I can be
I am gregarious, speak my mind and say it as it is
But I also keep my politics close to my chest
I now in a place where I want peace.. and a that little bit of rest. 

Jason
15th May 2026

We are beautifully made… plus I don’t care…

​I don’t care if you worry about not having high cheek bones, 
Those attributes are not worth my conversation, 
You are beautifully made my the higher power.. that’s the words I rather hear …. That kind of creation.

I am me…
Nothing more, nothing less
Actually you are exceptionally special to your higher power,
Yet you won’t always accept those compliments, nor look to them to devour.

We are made as we are
I am humble with my appearance no matter what,
Life is to accept yourself on the inside, that’s the true essence you’ve got. 

You are who you are
There will no longer be any physical change,
The looks are what they are just hold yourself together the best you can, 
Gravity won’t change for anyone.. that’s where I take my stand.

Jason
15th May 2026

Always an addict…

​Some will understand this
Others will not, 
We are ‘all or nothing’ people and want to give addictions a heavy shot. 

But we are on the cusp of anger 
An almighty struggle within the mind, 
People saying ‘it will be alright at the end of the day’
They can simply leave this soul forever.. plus today.

I am an addict
I fight against the system because that is what we do, 
I hate politics or seeing the news, 
I know they influence our business, but do they really have a clue?

I live for today, that is all I can ask,
If you have no faith in me, then you have no place in life, these words I shan’t mask. 

I have messed up royally 
More than I thought possible, 
Yet I need to love myself again, 
And how do I do that? Praying to my higher power… the one which I look upon to depend.

Jason
15th May 2026

Waking up to a blessing

​don’t ever give up
Live your life to the full, 
There shall be trips and scraps, 
You are a blessing and accept that with grace,
We have all been to that awkward place.

Now you are out of that,
You shall start today, 
Can I promise you it will be okay?

Of course it will, do what works for you 
Do not aim to please others, this is your path to ensue. 

We only have today to look forward to,
People who have hurt us can be prayed for afar, 
I am here to serve my Father in heaven, and at the gym (where I am now) go HARD!

Jason
15th May 2026

You work it, if you work it

​A.A. is the programme of all programmes you ever want to understand 
we are in this together, we look to encourage each other as well as take a open stance.

I am not here to struggle no more, 
This programme works if you put the work in, 
The light of the situation is humbling, yet I suggest you attend meetings to refute any chance to sin.

We are there to support one another 
Encouragement is the place to be, 
I am humble in my walk with God… No one else needs to be privy.. nor need to see.

I am okay,
I am just a little emotional writing these forlorn of words, 
Remember you only have today, all the other stuff I am sure you have already heard?

Jason
14th May 2026 

There for each other…

​I want to be there for others
But I need to find myself first, 
I am struggling with my thoughts, but this time I refuse to cause any hurt. 

I am there for others and proud, and for those I have met on this journey, I am proud of what they have achieved,
I try to not understand my own thinking, as there is nothing inside of my head I want to retrieve. 

I have loved, lost and found 
God is my anchor which is so humble and profound. 

I want to be there for others and I genuinely want to shine
I know by the grace of God all shall be well… and all shall be fine.

Jason
14th May 2026

Tick tock, tick tock🕥

​tick tock
Tick tock 
No one knows when any of us will  reach heaven, or touch that spiritual moment to rest,
All we can do is wish for the best.

We pray and we stay
What else can we do, 
The reality is there is a prayer waiting for you. 

Promise me not to give in
And yes, life can be so unfair, 
We live for today, that’s all I personally care. 

Time ticks by
No chance of holding back time,
Be patient with yourself, and learn the art in what you got 
Remember to be kind to yourself, and don’t try not to be what you are not. 

Hold off with the text
Hold off being impulsive, that won’t get you to the goal you want to achieve,
Stay in the present, and balance the goal in what you believe. 

Jason
14th May 2026 

I thank you for this poem✍🏽…

​I thank you for today 
You have allow me to cry and see the way, 
I have had addictions 
That’s no depict, those actions are my fault,
You have allowed me to have today, a moment which I could have never bought. 

There is no hierarchy where I belong
Stay humble and pray to be strong,
The light shall pull you through, 
nothing else on this earth shall do. 

You can’t claim to be better than anyone else;
That feeling can clearly be parked on the shelf, 
Don’t wind me up, I’ll comeback quick
How dare you think I am at all thick. 

One minute you are a child, then 20, 30, 40 and 50 years old,
Remember thank you for today, your story is important to me, especially from the story I’ve just told.

Jason
14th May 2026

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My Yiayia Florenza

​My blessing and my life
I pray for her to return to me one day,
I am sure I’ll see her in heaven, as from that moment I’ll have no choice but to be okay.

Thank you God for her life,
She hardly spoke English but her language was clear to me,
She was calm, patient and loved all that she would be able to see.

She would make you a cup of tea, 
and she knew you would be thirsty without asking, 
She was my gentle friend, the kind one… who didn’t enter debate
She was an example to us all and showed up… and never turned up late.

I miss her still, 34 years since she passed,
She was my angel, as I was to her
The 30 plus years without has been nothing but a blur..

“Miss you yiayia…❤️🙏🏽”
Jason
14th May 2026

I thank my Dad…

​I thank my Dad each day
Despite he not being here, 
I miss him so much, 
He had a way about him that was a giving touch.

He was endearing and a solid friend, 
I miss him more than words can say, 
This is what I cherish, as selfishly I still wish him to stay. 

People don’t always know your story 
Nor can they live it for you, 
I am on my own my friend, what else can I do?

I miss my Dad
My brilliant, beautiful friend, 
We didn’t get on from the start
As there was one up man ship, which didn’t come from the heart. 

But he was ‘my Dad’
A Father, Husband, Uncle and friend to the people,
One thing for certain, you knew where you stood with him… and never call him feeble. 

Jason
13th May 2026

Angel taken too soon❤️

​Blessings and prayers come from us all, 
May God look after this angel, who was taken away far too soon, 
I pray for your comfort and that he is no longer in pain
Love and prayers stay with you forever, starting from that moment and also today.

Taken too soon
So sorry for your loss, 
There is always a price, when a life is taken away, 
it often comes through an unprepared measures as we look to instil comfort to persistently stay.

The prayers will bring you close to his spirit
As the love for you guys will always remain, 
The pain will move slowly, but the melancholy will unfortunately sustains. 

God has got you
The Spirit shall never leave,
Protection through prayers and love 
Your child shall be inside you always, as that feeling shall fit like wanting glove. 

“Condolences Sue and family. Take care and please reach out for a chat… ❤️”
Jason
13th May 2026 

Dear today’s diary

​dear diary 
How are you today? 
I am feeling ready for the gym
So I’ll put on my gym clothes and ‘go for it’…
I start with the rowing machine that is my first port,
And the weights thereafter, from there I shall retort.

I put on the superman theme music,
Knowing with a prayer things can’t go wrong, 
So I try my best and fight until the last push,
As the satisfaction is euphoric like a everlasting ‘whoosh…’

You see, you can’t stop
God won’t allow you to do that, 
The world don’t stop because of you, 
Yes, take your time if you need to balance your mental health in order to ensue. 

So as I write to the end of the sentence, 
I know I shouldn’t put on that washing machine when others are sleeping, that’s my repentance. 

It’s been another week of struggle 
Along with a few mini wins, 
Remember these words, especially when you feel unsure 
Believe it or not you are worth much much more. 

Jason
13th May 2026

A base

​Some of us have a base
Some have a bed to sleep at night, 
Often we are finding out end goal, when only today you have within sight.

I pray for people to live in a comfortable home
And that through a prayer to God they never feel alone. 

We all have gifts to write our thoughts down and refuse ideal gossip which can cause harm
This is a world of chaos, happiness and provoke
This world is full of education we could be ready to soak.

I look to be grateful and find the light
The battle is always with pride, and what does that achieve? Nothing worth to fight. 

Fight for the humility and beginning
As this safe space you crave for is always worth living.

“Housing… the big achieve to capture….”
Jason
12th May 2026

It’s a waiting game..

​Somethings in life just required your patience
You don’t think things will get better, but they do,
You won’t be able to fathom or find a snippet which is a clue. 

If you are not patient with yourself; how can others be patient WITH you?
Think about it? 
Tolerance of time is a balancing test
The impatience you have put yourself shall through..  has got you in this mess. 

It’s God’s will at the end of the day, 
Say your prayers at night, this doesn’t warrant a pat on the back,
You are a blessing for all that know you, from that place you shan’t ever slack.

Surround yourself with you or positive souls who shall encourage, 
Remember life is life a plate of food, it’s just waiting to be nourished. 

Jason
12th May 2026

Trauma

​It will get better
You must to believe in word, 
If you start an argument with someone, then you are on the road to where things become absurd. 

You learn through this life
Mistakes will take place along the way, 
You can be the biggest controller, but those behaviours have no place to stay. 

Yes, work through a problem by airing to someone what you have inside
Do not suppress your feelings, there is a telephone number waiting to listen
This is your trauma to overcome, as it’s not always an impossible mission. 

You will pull through
It may not be today or the day after that, 
But it will gradually get better for you
There’s is always a prayer waiting to you to imbue.

Jason
12th March 2026

Our spirit within

​We seek and shall find
God answers prayers which we hope come from a heart which is kind. 

We look to ourselves for answers,
When that falls within God’s focus, 
We just need to pray and not feel so hopeless. 

Keep going 
Keep trying 
The formula is quite simple as we aim
Just keep going and learn within our prayer life to sustain. 

Just enjoy today 
No matter how it appears,
This passage of love and hope shall come through hope that we no longer fear.

Jason
12th May 2026

Why not?

Life? we tend to play it safe
Or are we too guarded? 
eventually searching for the answers to where it went wrong?
Knowing in God’s timing things may take that bit long. 

Today is a blessing
That’s how it appears,
Nothing in life can be set in stone yet, and through your higher power you’ll confronted with any fears. 

The time is yours to learn from,
You shall endure past fails 
And then seek strong futures to secure
People learning to be the best version of themselves,
Say a prayer and learn to focus on your spiritual wealth. 

Thank you for this day 
And Thank you for this life, 
Today is a blessing for those who made it to the end of the day,
May the light shine on you as God never stays away.

Jason
11th May 2026

There’s no rush

​surround yourself with those you care and love,
Don’t be around those negative types, so diligently and quiet look to shove.

They aren’t for you, 
So don’t be sad 
Being around them long enough can make you do something slightly bad.

So avoid the badness 
Pray for them from afar, 
We are all so different, each of us elevate ourselves and try not to be too hard. 

Be with those with hope in their heart,
They won’t have their life sussed out yet, 
In a world full of trickery, stay on your lane… pray and then go and get..

Jason
11th May 2026

Here to overcome

​Please read these words
Be open to your body, mind and soul 
Don’t allow this moment to halt..  now go. 

God is calling you 
Please read these words in a quiet room and through a prayer, 
believe it or not.. the moment is everywhere. 

Encourage each other 
Don’t see fault in anyone, especially as you are not perfect, 
Just be there in the strugglers presence,
Don’t allow anything to enter into your  heart especially resentment.

Don’t listen to the words “perhaps”, “maybe” or “ifs”.
This is simply my point of view, yet I think they are worth a miss. 

You only have now
Use it wisely with a calm in your heart, 
Remember today.. just today can allow you to restart. 

Jason
11th May 2026

Reminding ourselves

​What I am about to say I need to remind myself too,
May God hold you close and ensue.

The words are true
Time stays still for no one, reflection is there,
Be open and humble, there are safe places to share.

If a person judges and you feel frail
Don’t enforce your views, they simply don’t understand,
These words are open and honest and  have a way which they land. 

Peace is what I crave
The madness almost killed me, so goodbye,
If I keep my distance then that’s saying this is a sign.

Jason
11th May 2026

The addict in me..

​You see my attention was ‘all or nothing’,
And the harsh truth you are actually deluded for thinking you’ll gain something.

Now, I write the words of boldness and not to offend,
These words written shall reach out to someone to protect and defend. 

An addict is ‘all out’
Life has hit a brick wall, people have hurt us with fickle remarks,
We just need to remember we need to focus on us on this new passage to embark.

To those who are suffering, 
This level of stress needs to be put right,
But you need to put in the work.. and that is the ultimate fight.

Don’t beat yourself up
Look to your higher power with a prayer each day,
May God hold onto you, and in the rooms you are able to stay.

“Recovery never ends..”
Jason
10th May 2026

I can always see you

​I brought you up to be independent, loving and caring,
You haven’t disappointed me, and thank you for the daily gifts that you are always sharing. 

It’s a gift when I see you each day 
Believe it or not, you aren’t that far away.

You see, life is a journey 
And one day you shall meet your mum and I. 
Isn’t that calming.. it doesn’t warrant you to cry.

I am proud of you
Believe me, I can see you all of the time,
I know you I am in your heart, as today I confirm I see you through these thoughts that entwine.

“Howard and Nikki, love Dad.”
Jason
10th May 2026

77 and blessed by the Lord

​Dear Lord 
Thank you for my brother Ian, 
A blessing for me and to many others eyes, 
His hugs are memorable and can cause such a surprise!

he told me once: “The lord loves you so much”
A kind man of God, as I reciprocate the above words to him too
God has loved him since the moment he was created in his mother’s womb.

A husband, father, grandfather and a kind friend
His warmth and his kindness are blessed by you Father, these gifts always transcend. 

Thank you for this Man’s 77 years
Time flies and doesn’t stay still.
Encourage his journey with you Lord, his serenity touches hearts and his passages passed on has always heal. 

“Happy birthday brother Ian..May the Lord hold you… always❤️💙”
Jason
10th May 2026

18 months (sobriety poem)

​18 months of sobriety 
How did I reach this place? 
I haven’t got a clue,
Well yes I do!
It was through mercy and grace
Thank you Lord, I can now seek and embrace. 

I want to be with you Lord 
I want to face the struggles with more in reserve, 
This is a moment which I need to celebrate…. As I now look to serve.

I am now fighting the fight 
I am now winning… and not looking back, 
I have my resolve but It’s the Lord who shan’t allow me to slack.

18 months and counting
I never wanted to hit the drink and drugs on how hard I hit, 
The Lord believed in me, as I no longer feel hit.

“18 months sober”
Jason
9th May 2026

Take your time… today

​There is no rush
Impatience belongs to you and the others,
I rather take my time… a gentle pattern to take
Rather than rush, make mistakes and then eventually break.

Pay attention attention
Do for more than a minute,
It’s your recovery we are fixing, and you need to be within it.

This is your time
A time to reflect and no longer need to beat yourself up, 
You are only promised today.. I have said that a countless times
This is your journey… which we are looking to refine. 

Today you are here 
Have a coffee, tea, a piece of toast, go for a walk or to the gym, 
Remember you are here to serve, as well as to win.

Jason 
10th May 2026

Keep myself to myself.

​Connection is all what we need,
People shall come with their traumas, but how do we grow? and how do we also feed?

Connection is powerful 
But being on my own runs true, 
I believe in God with all my heart, I won’t impose my beliefs onto anyone, especially you.

You see, I love who I love
And that comes through a higher power, 
Never give into your hopes and dreams,
Time may be limited for many.. well that what it seems!

So Iove who you choose to love
As I don’t need to be present in their company to show my care?
I guide my heart with humility, and when I want to, I will offer my share.

Jason
9th May 2026

Fudge 🐈‍⬛❤️🙏🏽✍🏽

​I can see you Dad, 
You can’t see me, but one day you shall, 
So this isn’t goodbye my friend, as one day you shall see my fury tail. 

Dad, thank you for loving me
Dad, thanks for all of your loving care,
thank you for feeding me, and reassuring me that you will always be there.

I am not far away
I love you more than you know, 
I am not a ‘was’, I am still an ‘is’,
As I know you are thinking of me…and there is a gap, which you shall always miss.

You see! I am here
I am not far away, 
You may not be able to see me right now,
I can see you loved me so much and for that I am eternally grateful 
I pray to heavens that one day… just one day…. That the light shall shine and always show us the love to be faithful. 

“Love from Fudge… I am right here…🐈‍⬛”
To Tom
Jason
9th May 2026

You are better than you know….

I am proud of you my friend
You won’t give in, as I know you have your honour to defend.
 
Don’t give up Matthew,
You have been a great friend to someone like me,
Yes, I like my distance with all people…. But thank you for giving me a lifeline… and a chance to see.
 
I am not giving in on you
I may be in the background speaking a lot
But it’s your driving that’s a test of character.. as I know it’s something you have always got..
 
So don’t give up
I have done that before,
It doesn’t’ give you a chance to move forward, and not knowing technology isn’t always sore.
 
So be kind to you
Never give in,
This is your time to shine my friend… and let the world know you are here to win.
​
“Matthew… my brother”
Jason
9th May 2026

Thinking of you.. always ❤️

​I think of you during the day
I think of you during the night, 
I know God put this plan together…he has conjured up this light.

we wondered what was happening
I definitely didn’t know what was going on?
I thought to myself: ‘That’s it, I’ve had enough of relationships’, this isn’t a place I wanted to belong.

Yet, I say this and it must hurt your ears
Sorry, I don’t mean to rely any fears,
But the day is here and we are in love
Nothing on this place can shatter this spiritual realm from up above.

Ruth.. I love you
This poem has your name on it all day,
Just remember God made this happen and through the path of light we shall be okay.

“A poem for Ruth ❤️”
Jason
9th May 2026