Whoever is reading this…

​Whoever is reading this, these words are for you, 
You may have fucked up, or didn’t have a clue, 
Been slightly impulsive, or lost the plot, 
These words are communicated with a blessed attached
There is a hope and every else that is matched.

you are reading this, and said ‘what the fuck!’
Going at a million miles per hour not knowing where to turn, 
People in your family that panic and not sure what to do or say, 
May the light brighten the spirit and that the cobwebs go away. 

You are a blessing, never forget that
You may say ‘you don’t know what I have done’
Hey, is a journey, we have been hyped up and wanted tremendous fun. 

This world is exceptionally fast
Look at people and technology go fast,
This is a precious world after all, but you need your higher power to feel
You don’t have to see anything, what’s inside of you is spiritually real.

Today, that’s all you have
Blessing and hopes are the drive for us to see, 
In your belief through the higher power, don’t get drunk or take a drug.. that exuberance shan’t guide
It’s your spiritual pathway is the place you look to confide. 

Jason - Alcoholic and Poet (Abstain from alcohol since 9th December 2024… and counting)
21st June 2026

Father’s Day

​Blessings for all men on this very day
You don’t need to be an ‘earth’ Father, you can be a spiritual one, so thank you Father who art in heaven… the one who always stay.

Blessings to men who  miss their Dad’s who are not here today,
I can call upon my loss, but hey, the love for my Dad shall never go away.

He was my friend, 
Someone who knew how to manage me,
We spoke about many things, snooker, those we weren’t fond of, but hey…. that was okay
I miss that old git now… my Dad… as I know in my heart he always remain.

He never suffered fools, 
So don’t pull the wool over his eyes, 
He had a strong temperament and was a bit excitable.. so easy to surprise.

To all the Dad’s, whatever capacity that fall in
I am honoured to have met so many wonderful men, for me? That’s a resounding win.

Jason - Alcoholic 
21st June 2026

God’s house

​When we finally reach the Kingdom of heaven;
We don’t have a say who shall enter, those words are with God to seek to pass
All that matters is that we pray for each other… those words needn’t be repeated or shall ever last.

People will hurt you,
That’s the human side of us all, 
In a time of speed and things falling down,
We need to stay focused on the Lord, otherwise we speak to the flesh and that riles us, making us all frown.

The spirit will lift you, that is why we pray,
It’s God decision in the end, I just pray we have access to heaven oneday.

Conversations will loom
Kindness will outshine anger all the time, 
That’s why they say ‘turn the other cheek’ let the Father enter in you, for you to be able to seek the divine. 

I am talking from a place of pain, 
Grieve, addictions, judgement pain, sorry and not forgetting smiles, 
The latter word is the benchmark when we remain in the Father for quite a while. 

We all think we know best, 
Yet, we need to surrender and leave that to God all of the time, 
It’s hard,  I know, but that is the way it is
Remember the Father is the hope we need to lean on… that angle of serenity we should never dismiss.

Jason - Alcoholic (Last drink on 9th December 2024)
21st June 2026

Grateful 🙏🏽❤️✍🏼

​People surround us everyday,
Some we look at and immediately judge, 
but that’s God’s role.. so pray afar, let the Lord get in touch.

People have capacity to be loving
People also have the capacity to be humble, 
People can also let you down, if you follow that conversational trait, you shall eventually stumble. 

We learn to connect, 
Haven’t we hurt people because our life wasn’t going our way?
People today will receive my poetry for the first or second time, they may regret it! At least a blessing never strays.

Look at this life!
We have done the best that we can!
Others will be cynical and look at your failings, 
Ignore them… you are like a blessed that’s sailing through the night 
Awaiting to prepare love and have a blessing within sight. 

Church today was humbling and ever so profound, 
The days of excitement are behind us, all we need is peace… 
thank your higher power for this opportunity, to simply release.

Jason - Alcoholic (last drink 9th December 2024)
21st June 2026

What a beautiful day

​Pray for the light which has arrived today, 
It’s glistening out there, so much to be lifted from and to encourage
Not forgetting you will be apiritually nourish. 

A pray, a gym workout and then off to church, 
Life has its ups and downs 
But this will be a beautifully blessed day,
Thank you Father for the good and bad times that come our way. 

Be silent in the heat, 
Learn to breathe slowly when the temperature is rising, 
Best to stay focus in your higher power from a stand point there’s no need to be surmising. 

Enjoy the light
Enjoy the people who elevate your need, 
Remember we start from a humble beginnings, a mere mustard seed.

Jason
20th June 2026

Every meeting I go to…(A.A. Poem)

​Every meeting I go to is like oxygen
A place I won’t be judged, where you look at the similarities and not the differences, 
There’s the first 90 days when people want a new way of life, 
The chairing is amazing and the best place to start ending this madness and strife.

The principles are there, 
They are there to help, 
People suffering in the rooms who are unable to stop, 
Surrendering and withdraw through this madness that often rots. 

The place is safe, it can be the ultimate frontline, 
There is blindness in this addiction, all we want is a new way of life, to call yours and mine.

Today we have a light
A chance to start anew, 
God or whom you see him to be, 
Is your last chance to get out of this gratuitous mess… the higher power shall set you free.

Jason - Alcoholic
20th June 2026

Addict, then there’s life…

​I am me!
Who are you?
I am an addict, with fitness, writing and booze
The latter I am now blessed and have decided to lose.

I am me!
Nothing more, nothing less, 
I have made plenty of errors, and others remind me of my mess. 

So where are those people now?
They are far away from me, 
Yes they are right at that at that moment to express my waning hurt
I confess to my sins, as I too was burnt.

What is an addict?
Someone who takes things to access, 
Their brain acts like that normally, it’s a ‘all or nothing’ for me, which I personally need to confess. 

I train like a lunatic, 
I need the burn for whatever I choose to do, 
I don’t care if I am judged for this.. this my temperament which I shall always able to pursue. 

Jason - Alcoholic
20th June 2026

Hello my dear….. (Poem for Mum❤️)

​Hello my daughter and grandchildren
This is me saying ‘hello’ on my special day, 
I can see you right now..so don’t worry about me… I eyes are fixed on you, that’s forever and a day.

Hello my beautiful fighters 3 and mummy D, which you call yourself with your tribe, 
I am placed good people around you through our Father,
A stable place shall go to you soon.. yes, one day, 
Remember I am the one who can see you…. So I am pleased you have celebrate today.

I have always loved you, 
So now…?! don’t start to cry…!
Then again, I know what you are like my child, my spirit lives forgver, it’s just my flesh that decided to die.

God bless you 
And remember, I am not that far away, 
We have been on a journey during this time on earth, 
You are doing well my daughter (and fighters 3) and a credit to you all, who know your beautiful worth..

“Love Mum (Phyllis) from Fighters 3 and Mummy D ❤️”
Jason
20th June 2026

Hello George…

​Hello George
How are you today?
The world is still moving, and you keep asking questions..good for you.. answers need to come your way.

Hello George, I believe this is a special day for you, 
should I say ‘happy birthday’ now, a moment from which we celebrate and imbue.

enjoy this day, it’s yours to celebrate after all, 
You are a wonderful human being, devoted to mum, sister and your brother
You are one of a kind.. yes, this is cliche,… like no other. 

Happy birthday George,
Enjoy this day, stay blessed and remember God is always there,
When you have a moment say your prayers… as this is a moment to share. 

“Happy birthday George…. Have a wonderful day.”
Jason
20th June 2026

At this precise time.. I had to write

​There was this song playing 
I stopped, tears left my eye, 
This was reflective years that needed to say goodbye.

I don’t know where these words shall lead, 
I know (like you), I have feelings, cut, bruise and also bleed. 

I know I haven’t been there for everyone, 
Is that possible? I don’t think it is, 
You try your best… and pray… avoiding to dismiss. 

Sometimes we just need to cry and let it out, 
It’s about the journey you are on, 
Don’t always listen to others… this is your journey from which you belong. 

This took me a minute to write, 
The higher power spoke to me so clearly, 
I know these words are for you, if you complete reading the words that I write
There is hope… and for you.. there is tremendous amount of light…

Jason
20th June 2026

I talk to the mirror

​When all appears lost, what do you do?
I would talk to the mirror, and seek any glaring clues.

I try not to know it all
I try to humble myself down, 
I know my super-ego got the better of me, do I know better? I just say I have had experience… and through those moments I often drown. 

I am a stranger in these current settings
I walk away and say nothing else, 
I have been support by services and independent domain,
I go to A.A. Meetings to look at the ‘similarities’ not the ‘differences’, which my memory is able to retain. 

I know I have messed up, 
I have done the steps but I try hard to keep going without surrender, 
I know in the kingdom of my higher power, that I enter in frail and slightly tender. 

Jason - Alcoholic
20th June 2026

Nothing is perfect

​Embrace your imperfection, and it’s only appreciated when you fall time and time again,
The last time is when you seek for help higher than you,
There is a passage we all look to ensue.

I often laugh, turning dark humour into light,
Really my humour come from tragedy which I have faced, 
I appear to overcome with a mask wanting to enter into another place. 

You see people are who they are, 
What works for one may not for the other, 
You see I do care, but can I take the pain away?
The answer is not really, but I can be your friend just for today.

Today is all we have, I have said that time and time again, 
We have all done garish things thought the pattern we are unable to defend. 

People will support 
And family sometimes help or won’t at all, 
I have faced the latter, and believe me after my Dad died I was waiting to fall. 

We are learning everyday
We are trying to be the best version we can be, 
I won’t compare myself with anyone, I don’t care how great their life looks like, this mental health journey strangles and isn’t at all free.

So stay blessed, 
Look towards your higher power for support, 
And remember that this life is only temporary so fight to the end and avoid your mind to be fraught. 

Jason - Alcoholic
20th June 2026

There is a way…

​You wondered how you got there in the first place,
Tracking your steps and went arse over face. 

But you are here, just for today,
Not sure where to turn at times as time always go away. 

Starting a new life
Trying to smile and look ahead,
You only have today my friend, these are the words I believe, written and will have read.

The time is here 
The present time where you are at, 
Hold onto this time and see what you will or shall progress to,
This is a prayerful moment, one for you and I to ensue.

Jason - Alcoholic 
20th June 2026

There is a place to go in your heart….

​There is hope
You can’t see, or touch it
Perhaps at time you can’t feel it
Yet you find your inner sanctum that is lite.

Be kind 
Be loved
Be looking for hope in you and others, 
It’s not about ‘I’, it’s about ‘we’
Do not compare or feign to the cause
You are here to excel… not pause.

There is a positive from a negative
You may not see it yet, 
You have the potential to find a way through, 
And yes, you have tried, so much that you have rawness in your soul
But there is this thing ‘brush yourself down, and start again, 
There is a story awaiting fo you my humble friend.

There is love 
And love wins every time, 
Those who think anger is part of the story, 
It’s only the higher power that’s above you is allowed to release that side.. hence that part no longer needs to be haughty.

Jason
19th June 2026

Surround yourself with love…

​There is a higher power
A higher power that loves you more than you ever come to understand, 
There is a beckon of hope in everyone… from a place I once trembled.. but now I can live in hope in the place I stand. 

I am here today,
What else can I ask?
I want my time with the Father in heaven, 
The one who never ever foresakes my feeling, 
Often I have faced consequences (like us), at a time I am reeling.

Keep away from s#it stirrers, 
Or give it to them right back!
I am quick of the mark with those conversations 
But I rather pray and discern, that quality I never want to retract. 

Today is a good day
Today I put myself around people I wanted to be around, 
Those who are negative, I suggest pray ‘afar’ and therefore distance yourself…. That’s the heavenly protection which I have found. 

Jason
19th June 2026

Night time prayer

​Dear Father thank you, as this day draws to a close 
I thank you for the challenges I encountered as through your son who died to us, I am able to remain composed.

Lord thank you for my friends, mum, dad, family and friends,
This world has your protection, from which I look upon and depend.

Lord thank you for the people that I have met,
And even those who rile me, those people I shall pray afar 
and acknowledge who they are.

Thank you for this sleep I am about to take,
May the protection guide me to see the next day,
As with your night protection I know I shall be okay.

“For my brother Chris.. bless you brother ”
Jason
19th June 2026

Embrace

​It’s time to splash water on your face and see the light, 
Caught in a spreadsheet or a report to do, 
It’s your heart that you need your spirit to pursue! 

I’ve been there 
Deadlines, pressure and human demand, 
Wanting others to like us, you reach a stage when it matters no more,
Pray afar, there’s is a blessing there to hold onto the shore. 

Stay focused 
Stay humbled with the light,
Let others loudness take place, that’s none of your concern,
There are always moments when you are required to discern.

Look to the heavens 
Look to the stars that you shall see, 
A blessing grounds you to remain still and do nothing,
As in your higher power … you have plenty to bring. 

Jason
19th June 2026 

The fighter in you

​peace and joy
That’s what we look to aim and strive;
Most of  are chaos, in a place wanting to become alive. 

I repeat, some of us are chaos
Nothing wrong with that… to a point,
It’s the higher power arriving to receive a blessed anoint. 

This is a blessing
A will to keep carrying on,
This life to seek hope and contentment,
Not this aim for resounding resentment!

You fight 
That is the ‘free will’ to gain, 
Pray like a warrior, words you shan’t refrain. 

Remember, this is love
And this is guidance for the day which lays ahead,
I pray for guidance for each and everyone of you 
God is omnipresent, and available to ensue.

Jason
19th June 2026

Morning poem prayer (Prayer for Chris)

​Dear Lord
Thank you for this day
I surrender to you, as I know in my own I am able to stray,
I pray for love 
And I pray for guidance to be nice
I pray for a blessing and that I am able in all situations to always suffice. 

Dear Lord, 
I pray for this time that I spend with others, 
They are a blessing for me.. those of my sisters and brothers. 

I pray for learning
Guide me to what you want me to learn, 
I am able to stay still for a moment… and possess from that moment to discern.

I pray for surrender 
And and I pray for the light
I know you are in charge, and able to protect any spiritual fight. 

I pray for my protection, and living on my own too, 
This is a blessing passed on from a friend..one I can truly understand through you. 

“For my brother and friend Chris…..”
Jason.
18th June 2026

Birthday that’s blessed

​A blessing to us when times were hard
A blessing to have your presence, especially for those you have touched,
In a world that needs you… so so much.

This is honesty, you know? Speak as you find,
Your heart is massive, Thea and honesty that’s paramount to all our minds. 

Stay blessed and humble to your heart, 
There’s words of wisdom coming from your soul,
You blessed us Thea, especially when we thought there’s nowhere to go.

A beckon of hope
A kind and gentle soup with a steely spirit, 
God loves you so much, and all those people who delve in it. 

Thank you Thea
Have a wonderful day, 
Kindness in abundance, especially for today.

“Happy birthdays Auntie Magtha”
Jason
18th June 2026

Work in progress…

​We all try at the end of the day
Often looking at our faults, which others remind us anyway.

We all try at the end of the day 
We try to show care, be there for others, 
Time is very short despite thinking we will live forever,
Trust me, none of us are that good or that scientifically clever. 

We all try at the end of the day
Some make it dramatic, some make it fun
The true gift of a situation is to
Embrace many into becoming one!

We all try at the end of the day
What choice do we have? especially when systems here are reactive and often broken,
We are all worth it in God’s eyes, and that should be cherished from the moment we have awoken.

Jason
18th June 2026

How can you trust in man…?

​In a world that isn’t so trusting, 
People can fail you, especially authorities they follow a rule book to prevent public seeking help, 
Experiencing that moment when you need support as it ends in a ‘yelp’.

I am 53 years old as age is just a number 
I live with a auto immune condition, as I face daily thunders.

I get hypo attacks, 
I sofa surf and no authorities who can help wants to listen, 
Yes we will all have problems coming to us as our mortality reaches near, 
Are we designed for this world, but when wind ups need to steer. 

You see, the byproduct of this thing called ‘life’ is overrate
People seek moments of excitement, fickle gossip and uneducated nature,
Mistakes and being let down is part of the plan, 
As I get older and believe in God more by the day, 
Others not believing your thought as the arguments will continue anyway.

We need more action 
Less procrastination in a world politics seems to have over taken, 
Personally I can’t wait to be with God…. That heavenly moment when I eventually awaken.

Jason
17th June 2026

Messi…

​​The brilliance of an Artist we have not seen before, 
Yes there were previous geniuses, Pele, Puskas, Cruff and Maradona
This guy is a genius, an amazing talent who has the ball glued to his feet 
and he has a steely spirit that is persistent, where others will find hard to compete. 

The ball stuck to his feet as opponents cannot touch, 
This artistry is something so special to witness, as his skill is feared so, so much. 

The ‘best player’ ever is an argument in itself 
As a Tallis man who oozes finesse and grace, 
This man is so amazing with the ball at his feet
You often know you will be witnessing a footballing genius who is fired up to compete.

If the Pumas win the World Cup for the fourth time, It would be thanks to this special talent, 
A man who who swerves in and out of situations with an amazing plan, 
This 39 year old individual is a football blessing maestro, from which opponents are unable to withstand. 

“The brilliance of Lionel Messi…. “
Jason
17th June 2026

Dear Dad

​Dear Dad even though you are not here, you are pretty cool,
You said it as it is, and fought against  all of the rules.

We didn’t always see eye to eye,
But when that inevitable day took place, 

when he went away I simple needed a moment to cry as I often see his face. 

But he was cool
A humour git, not everyone got, 
Yet he was popular with all walks of life,
He was from the east end, a tough place at that time to live,
He scrapped and fought, and had that loving nature to give. 

Dear Dad if you are watching now, what would you say?
I know we had a laugh as I wished those times remained. 

You were my friend as I want you always here,
If these politically correct people were around he would tell them to kiss his rear. 

“Love you Dad”
Jason 
17th June 2026

The purpose of prayer

​A prayer protects 
And calms you through the storm, 
We all know none of us are perfect, especially through the trails what attempts to deform.

The prayer holds us close to God 
In whatever we see him to be, 
One day, just one day we shall be able to feel God always inside of you and me. 

The prayer is mighty
Nothing better can touch the heart, 
Make sure love is forever within us regardless how on earth we focused at the start. 
A prayer is gratifying, surrendering and guiding,
This is a special moment with your higher power, the one who knows your heart and the one you look towards confiding.

“Prayer every minute or hour of the day”
Jason
17th June 2026

No matter what… as long as you try….

​As long as you try, what else can you ask?
The life you shall lead will receive rejections, that’s part of the game
Don’t worry, the path God wants you to work towards shall always face trials,
It’s just that the outcome may be short or take a while.

As long as you try, 
Try with all your love, heart and soul, 
Love is part of the fight, that side of you shall never go. 

There’s a saying ‘where there is love there is hope’,
That’s why we live in hope until we all come to an end, 
People will move forward, they need to find themselves in order to mend.

Look at life
Look at love, 
Look at intimacy with your higher power, 
People will come and people shall go, that’s life.. accept that despite how direct that message is,
Just live for the present, you shall have plenty of chances to touch that time
As we aim to do out our best, and through your higher power…. That’s just fine.

“One to think amount”
Jason
16th June 2026

Just want a day off (Diabetes poem)

​Can’t we have a day off from this condition? 
Calculating carbs before injection,
And there is the formula to action we are always introduced, 
And hoping that your sugars won’t go high or low, in what might appear in-direct abuse. 

It’s not easy, as life needs to be managed as well
This is a branch to deal with, as I have plenty of hypo stories to tell. 

I just want to eat without injecting or programme numbers into a pump controller, 
Don’t get me wrong, I have learned a lot about this condition, especially when you become stoic and prevent other people getting closer. 

It’s a journey, and it needs to be embraced without thinking too much about this disease 
And you just want to have a day off, not an off day as this struggle isn’t a breeze. 

The struggles are there 
The people around won’t always underhand what you are feeling, 
They might say: “I can’t live with that.” “Great” I would say to myself not knowing what to do next, 
Just a day at a time with this condition, as the moments faced won’t always be perfect. 

“Living with Type 1 diabetes… daily”
Jason
16th June 2026

Before you do anything?

​Before you do anything pray for affirmation, 
This prepares you for today and avoid any fickle condemnation. 

The gratitude for today will always suffice,
Learn to be kind and the prayerfulness to be also nice. 

Surrender to the highest power
Love with all your might,
It's trickery out there, as you are already aware there needs to be a fight.

But there is hope with your higher powers guidance,
Along with that there is plenty of defiance. 

Jason
16th June 2026

Housing… where are they?

​It’s impossible to get the support 
I am sofa surfing and feel a little distort, 
No level of representation there to help, 
And seeking to find a way
It’s only the higher power that keeps your mind at bay.

Where is the support? 
‘No obligation’ it says on the housing act,
Trying like no end, that is where it’s at!

So what do you do?
There are hostels that move you into a flat, but you need to have fallen on hard times first
It’s like a desert well that wants your help but can’t help your thirst. 

The times are difficult to understand
What do we need to do? Hold up our hands?
We can only pray for a better outcome one day
As this poem is looking for hope as our hearts rest for today.

“Housing in London and in England”
Jason
15th June 2026

Learning the art to be there for each other.

​Some situations you say ‘yes’ to
And other situations you shall say ‘no’,
The art of that answer is to find your energy source, 
and if you have burned yourself out, try not to feel any remorse.

Some people you shall love
And some people you love but choose not to want to be around, 
It doesn’t need to be your blood family, that is what I have recently found. 

You need to focus on you
Be the best person you can aim to be, 
There is a higher power looking out for you, so take account of you and remove the chains which have strangled you and me.

Some people lift your spirit 
And others can make you laugh, 
The controlling nature of others can make you stoic, so pray first before feeling harsh.

Jason
15th June 2026

Controlling (Diabetes Poem)

​This world would pose many challenges, 
And with this insulin dependancy, there are plenty of organ damages. 

But we have to fight 
And have a ‘off day’, which there’s no control, 
This insulin calculation is something we need to manage daily, at the times that are fast and then slow. 

We want the best life for us and others, 
But the empathy we want, where we want others close to us to understand 
Besides, there are plenty of challenges, especially in the deaf ears from which they land. 

The syringing of the insulin
The carb counting and managing activity with a D.A.F.N.E. Programme that keeps us alive.
There’s no cheat day that we can have, therefore often we need to contrive.

Say now, I am eating a baguette with meat inside,
The bread is my carb counting exercise which I need to focus on,
Avoid to over inject the insulin, and avoid getting that calculation wrong.

“Living with type 1 diabetes”
Jason

If you had to pray for anything?

​if you prayed for anything
What would it be? 
A cash delight
A hope of seeing the light to your future
Or what suits you best for the future.

If I prayed for anything, I would pray for a humble place and peace,’
Conversation that’s not debate and a humble retreat. 

The retreat would be in the fields, far away from people, 
Those types can rile and put a bad taste in your mouth.. you know? Those that are brittle and sometimes feeble. 

People can leave you be, 
Through that pattern you are often set free,
I push others away unless I want to talk to you, 
As it’s only God, or how you see him, to see you through. 

Jason
15th June 2026

Try not to over think…

​There will always be a time when you ask ‘am I doing the right thing?’
I wish I could make you decide? but these words are levity to make you pray and consequently think.

I too over think, and was told ‘you’re not very patient, are you?’
Yes, that’s right, I have made the mistakes
Yet it’s through the hope you bring to the table, 
moving away from that person that was once unsettled and tremendously unstable. 

Nothing to be ashamed of
What did you do wrong? Try? 
Somethings are not meant to be, yet there is a protective power out there, and will heal, especially when you cry.

‘Over thinking’ is a biggest killer in this world
It can make you fraught and stay with a problem for that bit too long, 
Remember you are a person on this earth, with all the fragilities and sometimes it’s okay to be wrong.

Jason
14th June 2026 

Pray before you speak…

​I can only thank my higher power for making others laugh
Or they laughing at me… especially when my banter can come across harsh!

I can only thank my higher power for telling me to keep my ‘mouth shut’
Not every question needs an answer or a solution; 
leave that discussion alone and do not delve into disillusion. 

We all have gifts which the lord provides, 
What is yours exactly? lifting others or thriving what only God can put for you to one side?

We all have love 
That nature comes from God, 
That nicety is a blessing that comes from the spirit that you cannot see, 
As in the end it’s a prayer of gratitude that allows you to…..be.

Jason.
14th June 2026

The journey… what awaits

​There is a time to reflect
There is time to detect, 
There is a time to go the right way but you wonder where that is?
You look to the bottle and then eventually get pissed.

You look to the skies and say ‘where are you God?’, 
Fighting with every breath to stop taking, or drinking,
When in essence you can’t stop sinking. 

The wake up call may or may not arrive, 
You have to work at it if you work it, and thats’s to stay alive!

I felt shite
Angered and disconnected, 
I was a Skelton of  the man that I am today, even though I am far from feeling perfected.

I know now I have another chance
A chance only God gave to me in the end, 
I have met incredible fellowship, attend anonymous meetings which I now need to take upon and look to depend. 

“You are only as good as the last meeting… love me”
Jason (alcoholic)
14th June 2026

They never leave you..

​People here for today
Some you choose to be around, 
You need hope in yourself and also with God, that’s what I have often found. 

I have loved, lost and cared for people still, 
It’s people getting the best out of you, that is my want when I am surreal. 

Don’t worry if you don’t have the last word, 
That win belongs to God in the end,
We have been blessed by having an angel that we often look towards and depend. 

Words that flow from my heart, head and then onto my fingers to this page
The passage of hope in God can never be refused, 
We have all fallen short the love of God shouldn’t be taken for granted or simply seen to amuse. 

Today is the present,
Tomorrow shall be a mystery, 
People not here today shall never be forgotten,
There is a higher power in you, that’s the place which loves, cherishes and humbly begotten. 

Jason
14th June 2026

Coming back….

​Hey brother Julius 
This is for you, 
I am your friend, fellow and brother, and by God’s grace I wish I had all the clues.

Hey brother Julius 
You are doing right, and you know it too,
We have that personality to keep taking and using 
We now know the consequences when we started abusing

Hey Julius 
This is a prayer for you, 
Remember through the times you question so much, 
This is your time to connect to your higher power that in your heart shall touch.

The 23rd June 2026 is the start of a new life, 
You will make friends and endure struggles, 
But that is life for you, a life we make choices to take and drink 
As time won’t stop for anyone… as you will find a new you… just before you blink. 

“For my brother Julius… you will smash it brother”
Jason
14th June 2026

“For my brother Julius… you will smash it brother”
Jason
14th June 2026

Here we are… (Addictions poem)

​Addicted for destruction
Living a life which I thought was best for me, 
Drinking and taking to oblivion, in a world that often no one can see. 

The chaos surrounds you 
You think the Devil is your best friend, 
It’s until you reach that moment, when that passage can’t do nothing for you to transcend. 

I crave for peace, 
I crave for light, 
I crave for wanting God to take charge,
I know the 12 steps isn’t easy for everyone to follow 
But I am an addict of alcohol, I need to hold this method otherwise I’ll wallow.

I have met fellows on this journey 
We put each other on the right path,
it’s only for so long we can be drinking and taking 
As there’s no delusion of this illness, otherwise we will continue to be breaking. 

“Speaking as an addict”
Jason
14th June 2026

This condition. (Diabetes poem)

​This condition kills
And slowly, slowly destroys. 
You can understand people with insulin dependance frustrations, this more than just a chore.

You have people who may jib you when you are having a low
The struggles of a hypoglycaemia attack drags on and can feel slow, 
And there are people who have these mental health trials, 
Along with this condition you can understand why people who live with this are in denial.

Carb counting and leaving the insulin in your body for 10 minutes before you eat,
But you need to remain positive, and avoid that notion of defeat. 

I had a friend who didn’t regard my needs, 
I told them to leave me alone, as they didn’t know what to do,
This slow crippling disease shall one day find a cure, but now we simply need to pray and imbue. 

Jason
14th June 2026

When you pray.. you are never alone.

​Whatever your journey, 
However, how broken or not you are, 
There is a door that will salvage your faith, a place so blessed and not so far. 

You look at faith with love
And not within your own self control,
Yes, you do have free will to accept the higher power, through there you won’t go slow. 

You touch heart with words that come from above, 
I don’t take the glory, these words are flowing from a devotional prayer 
There is hope for us all, and can come from something so small.. even a strand of hair. 

You haven’t lost this fight
You just need to calibrate and start again, 
If you are reading this poem, then this is meant for you… my hopeful friend. 

Jason 
14th June 2026

If we didn’t believe, where would we be?

​If we didn’t believe where would we be?
I know where I would be, looking for a fight and a place that gets me nowhere,
I am following the Lord, the hope, the glory that his son declared. 

If I didn’t believe, I would be angry and would lose many fights,
People would rile, take the p.ss, I would hit them back,
It’s the blood of the Lord that shall never allow you or myself to ever slack.

If I didn’t believe, I would continue to blame 
I need the Lord like food and water required that is required for the body, 
I do not want to walk down the ‘other’ path.. that would become shoddy.

If I didn’t believe, I know I would be dead, 
It’s only through his timing when he will take me and you home, 
I know it would be peaceful by the grace of God… as I have never felt alone.

Jason
14th June 2026

He has got you 🙏🏽

​He has got your 
I am referring to your higher power,
Gratification pray for today 
And all the blessings that calm the bay. 

Ask someone how are they? 
That is spiritual and hopeful to that person, it’s not only you who has come this far? 

Don’t worry about tomorrow as that day shall take care of itself,
Look to your higher power, especially for spiritual health. 

Take your time whatever you do
Guard your heart, especially around debate, that’s a place you won’t want to ensue.

The higher power has for you
Every single day, 
Not much needs to be said, now be on your way. 

“Inspired by Ruth God bless… ❤️🙏🏽”
Jason
14th June 2026

Hey you

​Hey you…
That’s a reminder for me,
Especially from where my higher power is able to see.

I look to my future
And look towards perennial hope,
I am scared life won’t be great sometimes,
As I know I am not deserving
Therefore I look to remain strong from the moment I am serving.

The passage of addiction is a struggle
But the people don’t judge and listen to what you say,
They look to the similarities and not the differences, the initial word paves the way.

The walk is never ending 
Until the higher stops our walk,
The hope is to see the encouragement rather aim to seek what is others halt.

Jason
14th June 2026

My Dear Michael

​Dear Michael, my lovely friend, 
It’s amazing it’s been 7 years since we started being friends, 
A wonderful little journey of hope, a wonderful new trend
The hope you exude I hope continues and one that you continue to depend.

You have been supportive
And have mentioned many a wise word, 
You give me hope through the words that you say,
I thank you my dear friend, as time together is precious anyway.

You have shared
You have been kind, 
You make fun out of this Princess Latte friend… moi
The friendship we have conjured up has brought us plenty of laughs along with a ‘aha’.

You are a blessing,
And you are appreciated by this silly fool, 
And that there is hope in everything you say.. that’s what make you ever so cool.

“Happy birthday Michael…. Xxxx love you man”
Jason
14th June 2026

Teachable

​In addictions we need to be re-teached, 
Moments to find sobriety and avoid that negativity that aims to leach.

Thank you for service
Thank you for giving a chair, 
Thank you for being humble surrendering servant, and that today is all we have through these words that I bear. 

Focus on your higher power
Focus on your journey which shall eventually stop, 
Learn to be abstinence by following God, in how you see him
You are following a programme that has a light that never dims. 

The teaching being in the rooms
Or on a zoom call, the programme works if you put the work in,
You are part of a winning formula.. one, when you keep coming back shall result in a win.

“Poem for A.A.”
Jason
13th June 2026

Annoyances

​I am Jason and I am an alcoholic 
I am no longer in the system to wanting to feel demonic,
I said no and did the work of the 12 steps,
I am looking for a new life as I am about to reset. 

You see I ignore
Remove ‘perhaps’ and ‘maybe’ from the mind, 
I rather not compare myself with others as I now choose for myself to be kind. 

I remove myself from questioning people, unless delivered in a calm way, 
it doesn’t matter now who has the final say.

I speak to my higher power in the morning, praying for gratitude, surrender and guidance,
I look for humility and live in my higher power, that’s my defiance.

Jason
13th June 2026

Teachable (A.A. Poem)

​You learn 
You live,
You take, 
You drink and drink more
So much in fact, the consumption is galore. 

You work at it 
Every step of the way, 
There is a chance to stop but it’s a process which you need to work,
The chaos is off the charts, and eventually has no where to lurk. 

The teaching comes form the rooms,
The emotional intelligence is reignited, 
You learn a new way of life, a passage that’s far exciting.

You learn to give chairs 
You learn to help and offer service, 
This is a new beginning after all, a place that’s balanced and worth it. 

The journey won’t stop and life will be new again, 
This comes from being taught again, 
As the passage of a ‘new you’ as service shall be a new friend 

Jason
13th June 2026

Age… you can’t do anything about it

​Some regress 
Some manifest 
Some grow and embrace, 
Yesterday you can’t bring back, so why worry?
Is this another set of words for one to say I am sorry?

I am here 
And for that I am grateful,
None of us shall have the answers but that’s part of the insatiable.

This is your age and your journey,
Through the higher power you are ultimately worthy, 
If you feel depleted, then that’s a moment wasted 
I rather pray to start the day with a prayer, not those topics which are debated!

So move on sharpest 
Time doesn’t stop for no one today, 
Just start with your prayers first, it’s your higher power who has the final say. 

Jason
13th June 2026

What becomes better.. doesn’t

​The taking of the recreational drug, 
And the feeling that you are doing something naughty, but you aren’t a mug. 
What do I mean by that? you do something that’s exciting and makes you feel great?
Then there is the dependency which you seek an awkwardness to capture a debate. 

I wanted to do it, 
F.ck it, it’s my time to feel euphoric, 
But the fact is, this life can only do the taking and drinking for so long
There is an understanding through your higher power, as you feel through this addiction you can be strong,

The fact you are not, 
The drink plays a part too, 
This co-dependency of this crippling disease 
When the delusion doesn’t ease.

You get to a wake up call, 
Some make it, and some do not
The body is a precious organ.. .by the grace of God find yourself and don’t lead yourself to rot. 

There’s hope
With fellowship and kindness,
Put yourself out there, it shall be difficult but you won’t be accepting the blindness.

“Poem about addictive behaviour…”
Jason
12th June 2026

Holding on…. (Keeping on track)

​Don’t lose focus
As we know you will always try your best,
If you fall due to the mechanics in the system, the world won’t treat you like anything less. 

You see, I have been on a journey too, 
Broken and smashed to peaces, 
I need my higher power to restore me, as a ‘new you’ is eventually releases.

There is a time to heal
A time to accept, 
A time to work hard
And a time to keep still
This is your time to reflect, that the reason for this poem, the simple solution thats’s real. 

I don’t have the answers 
That’s with your higher power, 
So tune in and hold onto prayer
It’s not a daily thing.. it’s a minute by minute to declare. 

“For Andrew H. God bless”
Jason
12th June 2026

No one knows (Diabetes poem)

​We live with this day to day
Sugars high, sugars low and in reality there is nowhere else to go. 

You struggle with life in general 
but don’t get me wrong you turn bad situations into something right, 
The fact you need to be stoic and say ‘no’ a lot, as inside of you there needs to be a fight.

You can’t walk with aggression 
But inside you can be a raging bull, 
Especially when having a hypoglycaemia track, those things come on pretty full. 

You do your best 
You do what you can, 
There are people who try to rile you, but you f.ck them off, saying nothing makes them look silly, especially where I stand.

You need a good team
People who are willing to learn and be there, 
As the knowledge about this gruesome condition is difficult for anyone outside to bear.

“Living with type 1 diabetes… and the w.nkers I need to fend off…💉”
Jason
12th June 2026

Prayer for Jane

​Hello Jane 
I am Dawn’s cousin Jason, 
I am here to recite an array of words 
Praying for you right, through a prayer, which you may have already heard.

Jane, you shall fight
And you know that within,
People will love you on this unprecedented journey
In the heart of many you are humble and beautifully worthy.

Jane you are a blessing to others 
Your fight is an admiration to many that cross your path, 
There is love and light inside your spirit
And through a blessing there’s a prayer within it.

Jane, your power is love to bring healing 
You will be okay by a higher power, and that is a blessing to be revealing.

So love and prayers every step of the way
And that hope is love and that’s your medicine to make this okay.

“To Jane.. God bless and love and prayers x ❤️✍🏽🙏🏽”
Jason
12th June 2026

A Place of belonging

​In life we all need a base
Some people are emotionally intelligent and others do not relate. 

We have all faced some type of trauma, 
Things we can’t manage day to day,
But somehow we do pull through, as it’s only the higher power that has the final say. 

Some people want to cause chaos but still be the beckon of hope, 
They are the ones whom I am wary of, as I climb God’s perennial rope, 
You see, it’s about the heart and the action, some people don’t want you around
But hey, this is a life long lesson as you need your feet to stay on solid ground. 

People are generally good
And despite what they think of themselves, 
Some like a debate, those I steer well clear from and tell to f.ck off
That may sound harsh, but it’s my higher power whom I focus on and wish to bring aloft. 

Jason
12th June 2026

Today’s blessing

​Why stop!?
Continue to live and not just exist, 
There are incapacitated people out there and they don’t dismiss.

Argue with someone who likes to debate,
I prefer loving, that’s my form of fate. 

Be nice 
Be enlightening 
Scare yourself with something you’ve have done, 
Remember your fight has already been won. 

Have fun and live life 
Don’t hold back, and I say this to myself too,
This journey is finite, this moment actually belongs to you.

Jason
12th June 2026

We are all different

​If you judge
Then accept to be judged yourself, 
If you like a debate? remember there are always consequences to in return
Something to think about.. well that’s what I have learned.

Some people are who they are
They can’t change the person they feel day to day, 
They modify their behaviour, but the internal traits never go away. 

People do what they do, that’s all that matters, 
If you are nosy, then that’s fine, but that can’t be imposed on others traits, 
that other person’s journey is entirely different, and that’s more than fate. 

‘Be kind to yourself 
Be kind to the world you see, 
If you want an argument with someone, the person may pray turn the other cheek and serve with their heart and hands
Remember you are loved, and that five letter word that makes the world go around, especially from where I hope to stand.

Jason
11st June 2026

Your connection with others

​Some people are nosy
That is alright, if it’s the other person’s thing,
Personally I won’t ask a question, that is ‘my normalised’ behaviour from which I bring. 

Some people lack communication skills 
Some like the sound of their own voices, 
I prefer to be in the middle, therefore listen and say my point of view, 
If it’s a debate someone is wanting, then I’ll say ‘f.ck off there’s a mirror over there… why not talk to you’.

Some people are different 
Some don’t understand that, 
In a world of complexity, the heart is where it’s at. 

I prefer to have peace in a scandalous world’
I refuse to answer a question, why? That’s my safe space and that’s where I am herald.

Jason
11th June 2026