Rest peacefully..

​Before I go to bed I say my prayers,
I pray that I made it, no matter how great or challenging
We look to our faith, no matter how hopeful life has been or damaging. 

These words flow like a rhyme
Blessed and fully acknowledged, 
I don’t care what others think, nor should I be put off
I am a child of God after all and held aloft.

I pray for today and that it has treated me well
We are all facing difficulties and hardships we look to tell. 

Look to your hope from today
Remember the good you have in your life, 
You may not be good for someone, so you let them be
If you stay protected by faith…eventually your faith in a higher power will be able to see.

Jason
23rd May 2026

God kept me alive

​It wasn’t my time to go in 2009 and 2023
It saddens me when people have left by taking their own  
When in fact I should be with them by now, so today I am blessed and refuse to moan. 

How did I stay alive?
How did God keep me right here in the present?
I am sure there is plenty for me to write about… one thing for fact I don’t have any resentment.

I need God everyday,
He makes me happy and provides us all with tests, 
He’s rational is something so blessed, as he removes my disaster and mess.

People come 
And and people do leave, 
The family of my brothers and sisters shall await for you and I, so welcome with open arms and receive. 

Today is blessed
Accept that with mercy and grace, 
It’s only by the grace of God, I should have been dead, as it’s his timing that I need to accept what’s in place.

Jason
23rd May 2026

The reasons why we meet…

​There a reason why we meet
Some are annoying and ask plenty of questions, 
But through my higher power I love them.. my listening is limited for any retention.🤣

People are who they are
And nor will they change, 
some are social, and some less so these days, 
public speaking shall have it challenges but it’s character building.. well? that’s what I say.

There is a reason why we meet, 
and there is a reason why people are the way they are, 
if people ask and compare why people do what they do;
then obviously they are not meant to understand, even if they received an inkling from a clue!

If you don’t understand, then words don’t need to be said,
It’s not about ‘perhaps’ or ‘maybe’, you have read between the lines instead.

Jason
23rd May 2026

Thank you for a blessing.

​I use to here ‘you are here for a good time, not a long time’.
Words that are close to my heart, 
I, like us all, obvious statement shan’t depart.

In my day they called it ‘common sense’ 
Now they call it ‘accountability’ or ‘transparency’, 
Same feeling different words, 
Try to speak with intelligence, when really the latter disturbs. 

I am here today
And I am blessed to have these people around, 
They may annoy me, but I know I have a Father in Heaven who has put me on solid ground. 

You see, you aren’t brighter than me
Nor I am anymore brighter than you, 
If you ask questions to entice the mind, 
That’s great… now get a life.. and learn to be kind. 

Jason
23rd May 2026

A diabetics day (plus others moans😂)

​wake up with a hypo 
and hearing others moan, 
That’s too much effort, I’m yet I am not too old yet, nor do I want to groan. 

I say my prayers and thanks my God
I know I am on a trajectory in this life 
I have been presented with a gift, and I’ll can pray away the forthcoming strife.

I won’t undermine people 
As they have gifts too, 
I simply listen and pray for them, as I know my higher power is the final truth.

As long I say a prayer I will be okay, 
I simply wish you a blessed day, as guidance in faith shall never go away. 

Jason
23rd May 2026

You learn from this condition each day.

​You learn from these conditions everyday
Diabetes and alcoholism, which I have been privy to endure
This passage of recovery is never ending as this journey will continue to overcome more. 

Drink, drugs and this auto immune disease
We learn to overcome, and it isn’t a breeze,
We know our own thoughts are not always good, 
We focus on our higher power, as we know the time we have left is limited and needs to be spent well
These poems are motivation, even towards myself, to live my best life that I am hoping to continually tell.

Life is a series of moments 
Nothing stays forever,
We seek and we shall find
The authorities out there are constantly overwhelmed and possibly blind.

Life is a journey 
We can’t refuse that moment we face, 
The tide with our own thoughts cause chaos in our head
I am praying for you my sweet friend, there shall be more words to touch the heart…which are always said.

Jason
22nd May 2026

Therapy.. 24/7

​We are all in therapy
That’s what it appears these days, 
If you take offence from these words, I am not sorry to have this opinion, and for me it’s okay.

I don’t aim to deliberately offend 
I just speak my mind, and I shan’t be for everyone to understand, 
This world is far too divisive there politics is argumentative and can be a contraband.

You are who you are
You are the person that God ultimately loves, 
If you are going through a struggle at this moment in time, there is a prayer waiting for you to refute the devil’s attempt to tug.

We are all facing a light 
That’s about to shine brighter, 
Just remember we are all recovering and continue to be fighters. 

Jason
22nd May 2026

And it begins

​We begin to work 
And we work until we can’t movie
Additions is the same 
What do through that spiritually regain.  

Our time with the higher power, that’s what!
Life is yours to recapture and worth a a final shot. 

You may play it safe
You know what you are doing, 
Perhaps isn’t in our world, we are going blindly in for what you are pursuing. 

Today is all we have 
And the people who hold back shall ‘ask why’?
I am here today, so simply be nice before you say your final ‘goodbye’.

Jason
22nd May 2026

Keeping it real

​Keeping it real
That is the truth of life, and that is what is surreal.

Politicians shall philander 
That is what they do, 
Policies are not for the human connection
Social reform is the one that needs a fraction of some kind of perfection. 

Nothing will be perfect, 
That is what I am saying, 
I am seeking my higher power, that’s the one I and you should be obeying.

And if you believe then that is great,
The journey never stops, as energy in politics is a fickle debate. 

The fact is, we don’t get what we want 
And often enough we are constantly taunt. 

So live for today
And treat others how you like to be treated yourself 
And if someone is making fun of you, refuse to look at them…. God shall deal with them.. just maintain your spiritual health.😉

Jason
21st May 2026

A day at a time

​We can’t do this thing called ‘life’ in a rush
We seek heaven and some of us shall embrace it so much. 

We are looking for the power to move with God
There is nothing he can’t do, 
It states it within the prayer which we look to ensue.

We have all suffered
We have all enjoyed 
We have all fallen short, no victory in our higher power that can’t be employed.

Avoid the pessimists, who call it realistic,
As this journey is for you to embark, 
You can’t lose your incentive as there is always a focus to seek the truth from the hark.

Love to love
Don’t look to argue because you are into that sort of thing, 
I am optimistic in life, because God is in control… even through your sin.

Jason
21st May 2026

Time for a prayer…

​Time for a prayer 
God holds you close, that’s my open declare.

Your time to reflect
Your time to soothe,
Hold yourself together by grace a moment to move. 

I want to be free
And it shall be in heaven, or elsewhere?
Love is protecting 
It’s better than try to perfecting. 

Praying for you my friend
I always have, 
Fighting every step of the way
Today is all you have, it’s with God I prefer to stay.

Jason
21st May 2026

Treat like your last

​love with all your heart
God has been with you from the start, 
So we are here.. right now, 
We have drawn our first breath
Life is the biggest you’ll ever challenge, therefore pray with almighty zest. 

It’s now you’ve got
Get your day up and running,
I need a kick up my bum too 
Isn’t the equation of this life ‘sometimes’ (just sometimes) simple to do?

But don’t we make it complicated along the way, 
The spirit inside is you, and this needs to be with your higher power, for it’s them you ought to obey. 

Here again
Thank you God for almighty my breath,
The simple things we take advantage of until you get old, 
Remember, these words I’ve mentioned are inside of most of us, 
It’s only through a simple prayer that we need to trust.

Jason
21st May 2026

Restfully present….❤️

​Love you mum,
That shall never ever stop
Love is a power that is eternal and held through our hearts,
They will continue to live
And to embrace what we are still able to give.

Love you my child
Forever and for today, 
I lay a sleep and in the morning it shall be okay.

There is a light 
We shall shine forevermore, 
I love you my child, from the earth through to the heavens…
I know you are with me now
We are holding each other’s hands from this life which God instructed and never said ‘how’. 

We are here today
And shall go when the mighty Father says, 
The most important at this moment in time, we are held by the Father in heaven.. whom we always known has led.

“Mervlyn to mum xxxx ❤️”
Jason
20th May 2026

You can give in.. but you won’t!

​I pray you don’t give in
Don’t allow the demon to enter onto your path, 
You will get through this, the devil shall throw their wrath. 

Don’t blame yourself
Don’t let others words hurt your soul, 
Trauma will attempt to filter that through, 
we have all entered into a hole as it’s the end result you pursue.

If they leave you, let them be
You are stronger than that, and through you shall become free.

Don’t lose this battle
Because God has got your back, 
If you need to focus, then focus on your higher power 
That higher power will believe in you, and through mercy you shall devour.

You are here to win
You are here learn from your lost, 
Remember, everything is temporary, and that Jesus for you and me.. died on the cross.

Jason
20th May 2026

God with Us… (Emmanuela Birthday Poem)

​Thank you for blessing with young wonderful soul, 
So much to give and so much to accept, 
A blessing for those who meet her today and thereafter
God bless this young lady forever and also today
And this is life that is blessed, and those spiritual moments remain.

Emmanuela, thank you for peace
Thank you for noise, 
Thank you for caring
And ultimately, thank you for you sharing.

You are blessing to Mum’s and your families life
You will endure many moments along the way,
Always start with a pray to start your life day.

Happy birthday Emmanuela 
May God shine his light as these words shine, 
God bless her on this 18th year 
And through the light God you never have to fear. 

“Happy birthday Emmanuela….. Love Mum, Family and Jason xxx”
Jason
20th May 2026

Incredible life. Thank you poem

​Thank you for my peace
And thank you for the laughs, 
Thank you I am sober, and towards myself I am no longer harsh. 

Thank you for creation
Thank you for this time with God, 
Thank you for this calmness instilled in my veins, 
Thank you that I have got rid of the madness and that I am no longer insane.

Thank you for your life
Thank you for the breath that fills the lungs, 
I want to be humble in my mercy through God and that I am no longer glum.

I am thank you for you reading this
You are helping me, an addict too
I am blessed to have today to aspire and serve
And just like you.. there is is plenty of worth.

Jason
20th May 2026

The Achilles heal of ‘perhaps’ and ‘maybe’

​There is no ‘perhaps’ or ‘maybe’ 
And I can tell you the reason why,
People either know, or they don’t, this things calls procrastination has to be told goodbye.

I won’t want to say. ‘Perhaps’ or ‘maybe’ because life just takes place
You can’t always be on guard; how do you take risks or evolve? Do you stagnant? As the art is to remove haste. 

Assertiveness is key
‘Maybe’ doesn’t make you feel free,
And neither does the feeling of ‘perhaps’, 
it just prolongs the conversation and for me personally can lead to relapse.

I don’t want to wonder ‘why’, I like to make decisions and face the consequences to the end
Am I being too limited with my approach, or should we look towards a hope in order to depend. 

You see, the ‘if’s and ‘but’s’ They do have a place to be said
But consequently the decision needs to be had, and these are the words along with the feelings which have been fed.

Jason
20th May 2026

Rebirth of an addict

​I am sure being an addict for you and me?
Did we ever want to put it on our C.V.?

You see, this is a new life
A freedom you could never comprehend, 
Life is challenging enough, and there is always your higher power to look time with to spend. 

Poems are my release,
What is yours? 
Moaning in the morning? Or energise yourself through tasks and chores.

You there is this thing called ‘love’
You know? That thing which makes the world go around, 
As long I am ‘reborn’ today, then I have truly found. 

Jason
20th May 2026

We are all so beautifully niche

​Life a puzzle which you constantly try to figure out
Some people get support and others get naught. 

You work your way through 
You learn the methods which keep you aligned, 
And to be honest there will be traumas, but after the pain you do eventually shine. 

If you are miserable, then what do you expect. 
You call yourselves ‘realists’ but nothing in life is a sure bet. 

Life is mystery, 
A place you haven’t been
taking that risk may work out, being scared is also part of the sin..

Jason
19th May 2026

The mind of this addict…

​I can’t proclaim to know it all, 
Falling into a trap, which you felt you were in control of, then you began to fall. 

For me it was grief, I lost someone close, 
That person was always there for me.. at this time I needed them the most.

Others said they said but didn’t put their neck on the line,
Sometimes harsh and tough words are mentioned, this tapestry of addiction is so difficult to define.

I can’t say I know it all
Neither could anyone else, 
They have touched on their higher power, and see a ‘new life’ which enriches new wealth. 

Some call it God and some call it a higher power
I struggle with this addiction but I do my best ‘just for today’ to try stay focus and live this day through 
This disease is so gentle and silent and sometimes there is nothing else you can do.

“My alcohol journey… plus many others”
Jason
19th May 2026

Balancing life…

​Evolution… or is there a solution on this path we walk
We seek, find, lose and gain 
It’s the higher power we look to keep us aligned and retain, 

I prefer to write, than to speak 
Discussion is important, but too much of it hurts the head, 
Information overload tires us out before we go to bed.

I look forward to seeing you, 
I prayer holds you each day,
Energy is a balancing act, I am discovering this at time of life.. nothing else I want to obey.

The mistakes have happened, 
The people reminder you… ‘I told you so’
Their perception is clearly correct, 
We live on an earth which we all know isn’t perfect. 

Jason
19th May 2026

Who said it would be easy?

​who said it would be easy?
Nothing worth fighting for will be give to you, 
Yes it’s your journey after all
Stay here and read this message, and start again to stand tall. 

None of us are designed to give up,
And I say this to myself too, 
I’ll practice what I pray,
Thank you God I am here for just today. 

So as I stand here 
At this unearthly hour at the gym when I could have stayed an extra hour in bed, 
I start my day with prayers and then practice what I’ve preached instead.

Jason
19th May 2026

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The walk which you don’t know where it leads.

​Some people call ‘life’ 
You grow and don’t look back, 
There are times you take risks and wondered if you slacked. 

You thought you sussed it out, but the fact this is a journey,
Ultimately you are a child of hope and graciously worthy.

People call it life, 
People call it love,
People call it being considerate when treated with kindness
If you say ‘goodbye’ to someone you love, then that is ultimate blindness.

You see, it’s about protection 
Keeping away from people who cause you harm, 
They may not think they are doing anything wrong,
But honestly, with them… you do not belong. 

I loved, 
Lost
Lived and survived
I am here for today only, do I need anymore to surmise.

You can question ‘perhaps’ and ‘why’
I don’t entertain those conversations, as before I go to bed I won’t answer that question.. and say ‘goodbye’.

Jason
18th May 2026

Life’s problems solved with a …… hug

​Good morning or good afternoon
How are you today?
Need for a hug, or should I stay away?

Perhaps a hug will help
Perhaps it won’t, 
The clinging of a difficult situation needs something in place in order to solve 
Then again, we are here only temporarily, so in reality there isn’t much to hold. 

A hug is a temporary solution 
It’s better than an argument, which is much better than retribution. 
So here I am today thanking for this life
I want to hold onto good people who I love and know are much more wise.

So here I stay hopeful
So here I stay strong,
Here I give you a hug when the world is crashing down,
I too have tried to take my life and wanted to drown.

I wasn’t suppose to go
That’s God’s calling for everyday,
He will decide when I ascend to my new home where I shall obey.

I love a hug
I remember I hugged my Dad, caused from an altercation caused by a pr..ck,
I am rather embrace with tears flowing down my cheek
I know there are good people out there.. for whom God chooses you when you are struggling and not at your peak.

Jason
18th May 2026 

That moment (The time Dad passed away)

​It was my turn to sleepover at the hospital that night,
We knew we were going to lose a great man, 
I laid next to him on his bed and played old 50s, 60s crooners songs
I felt unhappy but wanted the omnipresent Father to remove this pain from my Dad,
Unfortunately we all knew he weren’t going to make it…as we were inevitably feeling sad.

It was roughly 10pm, I kissed my Dad’s head and said ‘goodnight you git’,
I made sure the bed sheets were put over him, before I went to sleep on the bed next to him
We were all feeling a great loss awaiting to happen, 
We have all been there, facing a struggle you wished never took place
But I wanted God to take him because of the pain he endure.. and I don’t say those sort of words in haste.

I went to sleep 
And then at 00:03 hours I heard my name called,
“Jason”, I looked at the nurse… and knew he has passed,
I didn’t panic, I looked at my Dad and put my hand over his mouth, from there I felt his last breath
I contained my emotions and knew God took him away,
I was selfish… as dearly wanted him on this earth to stay. 

You see, my Dad was my protector from foes who didn’t have my back,
He didn’t take my shit too, and his determination never slacked. 

I called Mum and my 2 brothers to give the news, 
I was stunned as my Dad was a fighter, as I was deluded and even felt this fight he wasn’t able to lose.

I didn’t get on with Family members 
So I left the family home, 
We did our best to be a unit of support, but in truth I wanted to be alone.

I am entitled to my rights 
As I know people aren’t entirely bad, 
But connection is important for me.. and honoured to have him as my Dad.

I speak to him every day, my rock, my protector and the one who use to say “shut… your effing mouth, that’s nothing to do with you”
Boy, don’t I miss him now… as I felt my heart ripped out in episode that I inevitably lose.

The funeral took place on the 8th June 2023
My brother and I shared our thoughts about this great man who we gravely missed,
Dad, if you can hear me right now… remember my last act towards when I looked at your forehead and planted that good night kiss.

“I speak to those I want to speak to.. but this man.. I would miss until I’ll meet him one day in heaven. Love you Dad x 🙏🏽❤️”
Jason
18th May 2026

I say my affirmations each day

​I say my affirmations each and every day
It takes a moment of clarity from your higher power to keep the devil away.

You may hear words of wisdom 
And sometimes you won’t, 
You run away from a situation which is too much to bear,
Remember a prayer is not far away to openingly share. 

We all face trauma in our lives,
We are all on different walks which don’t align,
As long you say your basic affirmations.. you will be fine.

Start with prayer or medication 
Look to the people whom you can align to at that moment,
And lift yourself by looking positive words rise the soul
God gave you this life, and sometimes you have nowhere to go.

Jason
18th May 2026

Those who DON’T walk in your shoes.

​Some people try to make fun out of the situation 
Some people look to rile for their gain, 
Turn the other cheek, as this discussion doesn’t belong to you to maintain. 

People are there to rile, 
Some are funny, and you reverse it by laughing at their jest
Knowing you have a higher power that enables to you bring out your best. 

There are good people in this world we need to be around
They will pray for you, lift your soul,
And there are others, who dispute and simply need to go.

It’s about protecting your heart
You are not compelled to be around people you choose not to be with each day,
Remember, mediate, prayer to your higher power.. these’s are feelings which ought to stay.

Tomorrow is not promised 
But love will live forevermore, 
Do not compare yourself to others, that has no worth… actually shall make you sore.

Jason
18th May 2026

The weeks fly by..

​Where does the time go?
It doesn’t stay for long, 
Surround yourself with positive thinking and a great talk,
Along with that pray..and head off for a walk. 

Somethings aren’t for you
And some are when they do arrive,
You are only in this earth temporary, aren’t you glad to be alive? 

Where does the time go? 
I know it’s wasted half the time with negative chat, 
I am focusing on a prayer always, that’s where the flow should arrive at!

Walk away from a negative situations,
A place which leads to a ill fated debate, 
Just pray for the time to work for that moment, as your mental fortitude is always worth keeping in a humble state. 

Jason
18th May 2026

Chris… a blessing awaiting to happen

​Dear Chris
How are you today?
I pray to God for your recovery, or should I stay away?

I will say this, you are a laugh, 
A person who will pull through whatever he faces, 
Something so blessed and so embracing. 

You are a kind man, 
I can see that by the way you speak,
We are all on this journey to find ourselves… so be open for what you tend to seek.

You want right to be right, 
And avoid the other path, 
Don’t be too hard on yourself on this day which celebrates your birth,
through your higher power Chris.. there is plenty of worth.

“Happy Birthday Chris…. Keep going”
Jason
17th May 2026

Happy Birthday to a beautiful Drama Queen

​Dawn, where do I begin? 
Belated birthday greetings, so I shall start with the complimentary..  fun, loving and humble within.

You are joy and a great listener
You are blessing every single day, 
I thank your beautiful Mum and Nanny Tibbels, God bless their souls… they would be so proud 
You are hard working with a great personality… and I don’t care.. even if you are loud..!

Happy birthday my Cuz, 
You are a blessing whom we all love, 
There are showers of Angels protecting you, that you should never be able to shove.

You are a blessing my dear
These words are perfect to the mind you possess
You are humbled by grace and mercy… and deserve nothing less.

“Happy Birthday Dawn for the 16th May… Love ya x”
Jason
17th May 2026

Please don’t apologise❤️✍🏽

​Please don’t apologise 
You have done nothing wrong, 
I suppose I am asking for someone who I see as special to understand, 
As from this day I don’t know where these feelings shall land. 

I do suffer mental health
But I keep it close to my chest,
And yes I am very hard on myself, I’ve lived my entire life suited in a bullet proof vest. 

You are you
And I am me, 
I do want to grow with you, but what shall be will be. 

I try not to be a pessimist
And this is a ‘new journey’ that awaits, 
You have your own thing going on, and that too needs to take its course
But you are right about one thing, this road will be instructed by the Father 
And those roads I rather to seek acknowledging they shall become harder. 

I do try, all I want is connection with someone I love, 
If this isn’t reciprocated then that’s fine, I just need to live with all of the above!!

Jason
17th May 2026 

60 days … (Jay poem)

​Jay you are doing great!
You are trying your hardest and we see that, God is holding you close and that is the spirits caring, which I am sure you can relate. 

Jay, 60 days and counting…
You are a blessing to those that you see, 
You may not feel that at times, but when you put in the hard work.. you’ll capture a new form of free!

Jay you are loved and truly encouraged,
Keep going every step of the way, 
This is a new life for you my friend, as you already know this.. you only have today!

Be kind to yourself 
The first step is the hardness to do, 
Stay positive with a prayer in your heart, 
The light that awaits you shall merely become the beauty of a brand new start. 
“Jay you are doing great… love from Amy ❤️🙏🏽x”.
Jason
17th May 2026

No excuses.. just pray 🙏🏽

​No excuses for today
Can I pray for you, please allow me a few minute to stay.

I’ll be praying for you
Hope is always there, 
Sorry if you are experiencing troubles, I just pray you are able to endure the pain you’ve already declared. 

I am praying for your strength to restore,
There is a prayer waiting for you, to strengthen, which hits the centre of your core.

Remember, the ones lost are in a peaceful place, 
Prayers are humbling and are beautiful to embrace. 

No excuses to say ‘no’
This is your win, 
You are only guaranteed today
Connection through these words is a prayer that I choose to relay.

Jason
17th May 2026

I say goodnight…

​Goodnight my friend 
I will hopefully get up tomorrow, 
I simply pray to God if can I be with him today
He just say to me: ‘shut up’ and then tell me to go away.

Good night my friend 
I am not doing anything rash, 
I am not looking for any sympathy or worry to what’s on my mind, 
What can anyone do? I am not sure too… faith can be focused, even when you are blind.

I would say good night
I pray you will see me again, 
I am not going to do anything silly or with haste
I am looking to stay in God’s corner… that timely pace.

I am going to say Good night
I won’t drink, or take drugs ever again,
I am just going to close my eyes… and remember… I love you my learned friend..

Jason
16th May 2026

I sit here quietly… (Sobreity poem)

​I sit here quietly, wondering ‘how’, ‘what’ and ‘why”?
I have gone past the angst and ant anytime I can easily start to cry. 

People think they know what’s going on with my brain?
I fear they don’t have a clue,
I am trying to keep my sanity for one more day.. what else can I do?

I struggle with addictions all my life,
The gregarious nature of wanting more, more and more,
But the fact is I will fall down on my arms, hands and possibly face… wouldn’t that be sore?

I know I am here today, 18 months and one a week sober
I am learning a new life.. and if I need to, I shall go a little more slower.

Today is what’s promised 
And I thank God for that each day, 
I know in my heart I will enjoy this journey of sobriety more than I can ever know
As this is a passage of discovery, which each of us are able to grow…

Jason
16th May 2026

My Dad…. Andreas or Andy Pandy x

​It wasn’t so long ago since he passed. 
3 years and I still can’t believe he isn’t here?
I have moved away from my family, because I wanted a safe space to be near.

I miss the old sod,
He is the best friend I could have ever asked, 
However, we didn’t start on good terms, but that’s my problem trying to unmask.

He was funny, and said: ‘what’s his name’ quite a bit
He was fun loving and often a silly git. 

We miss him, 
He was a protector and loving friend. 

A husband, father and Uncle who knew how to take charge and reach out
His is an example for us all. Well… that’s what I prefer to vocalise and know about.

“Mr Andreas Andrews” you beautiful man. Still miss you… x”
Jason
16th May 2026

The mind of an addict

​You see, what must come up must come down,
You see the mind of an addict doesn’t see the consequences, so they often drown.

They wake up in the morning often look at denial, 
And to be honest with you this situation can last quite a while.

You put in the work as it comes from within,
I didn’t think I would be an addict, but who am I kidding?… this wasn’t a win.

I would have people say: “go on.. one more for the road.. that won’t hurt”
They don’t understand your body, and they don’t care because you do eventually disperse.

The mind of an addict is limitless 
They don't care what happens to them along the way, 
The level of control is nonexistent, and if you don’t understand, then read and learn more today.

The addict will grow and the disease is there
There is ‘no perhaps’ or ‘maybes’ because that doesn’t fit in our world,
We simply let it take over, as when we us our stomachs can’t take anymore, therefore we eventually hurled. 

Jason
16th May 2026

A day in the life of a diabetic

​Life is full of ups and downs
With this bloody condition you have moments you have no choice but to drown. 
With insulin dependant people, they don’t produce the insulin from the islet of a red blood cell which comes from the pancreas
And to be honest with you, the effects are quite cantankerous. 

I have told partners to leave me alone, 
They have loved me because I am on the ball, 
But the emotion diabetes comes with, you often tend to stall. 

The mind struggles 
Emotions runs high, 
And there’s are others with emotional that connect to yours
So you try to remain calm, but the chances of that hit the very core.

You see, I know we all have problems in our health
And as we get older things will enviably struggle, 
So you choose the people you want to be around because the vibe they give shall hit your soul
It doesn’t matter if it’s a parent or loved one, unfortunately you need to protect your ‘safe space’ and they need to go.

“Life living with type 1 diabetes”
Jason
16th May 2026

Starting the weekend

​wake up, put cold water on your face 
This is another weekend to enjoy,
Pray first, a default to employ. 

Wake up and say “thank you” 
Be polite and try to shine your light, 
God gave you this life to live
Just be polite and try not to overly give. 

Find your balance 
Find your peace within, 
Stop asking ‘why this?’ And ‘why that?’
Just ‘be still for a second’ there is plenty inside of you to reckon.

Remember you are blessed 
This may be your last day here,
So try to enjoy this weekend my friend as there’s plenty else to fear. 

Jason
16th May 2026

It’s almost time

​it’s almost that anniversary, the one you don’t want to remember 
Three years ago my friend passed away,
I feel melancholy still and a little sad as I recall he couldn’t stay.

I was numb
Didn’t know where to turn,
I asked God to take me away too, I didn’t want to be around others therefore I too looked to burn.

But the reality I am here today
Missing that old baster’ as I now refuse to fray.

It hurts when the17th May arrives 
I know today, God wants me here to continue writing poems in order to strive.

I miss you Andrea’s Andreo, my good ol ‘ Dad and dependable friend 
I talk to him everyday, as one day we all shall descend.

“One of May poems for the legend.., Dad xx’
Jason 
15th May 2026

Common sense

​You see they call it accountability, acknowledgement and other elaborate words
We call it in the past good old common sense’, those words I would often refer.

When words are articulately said 
When only mone needs to be mentioned,
I acknowledge the simplicity of the action that’s my comprehension.

They say common sense isn’t common
That’s because people need to say a lot when actually little needs to be said
So you aren’t saving your oxygen when a forlorn words are often unnecessary read.

I simply pray to God to ask why is this life is such a mess,
I get told to listen and pray, you don’t need anything less.

You see occum razor which means ‘the obvious answer is often the correct one’
I follow that guidance because I prefer not to say a lot of words when actually I rather say none .. 🤣

Jason
15th May 2026

Recovery never ends….

​Does recovery ever end
That depends on the situation to make amends. 

You see, the 12 steps are powerful
The S.M.A.R.T. programme also shows it worth, 
It depends on the individual, the language is hard and it does work. 

Recovery is my life now
I won’t want to taste a drink again, 
I just need to follow the programme, and allow my higher power to guide
this is putting in the hard work and avoid to subside.

Recovery is a journey 
Or a place you choose to be, 
It’s all about free will and the work you shall put in
Today you are blessed by saying a prayer through the process that you choose
This is for winners only .. as you have already experienced the moments when you once use to lose.

Jason
15th May 2026

The story… from and to..✍🏽

​So here today and ready to tell my story 
This is about me and you… I was chaos and felt I needed the chaos which came with glory..

You see., 5 years back I lost my job, and my son was put down and needed to do time
I was wondering where my life was going? What can I do, my brain wasn’t at all fine.

I was domestically abused and faced a torrential amount of hurt 
I lost myself and then my sister passed away, as honestly I didn’t know my worth.

You see, this can happen to you or I
What do I want to do, stay here on this broken earth or face the possibly to wanting to die. 

I found a way, only by the grace of God
My higher power kept me alive,
How on earth did I overcome these emotions in a period I didn’t want to survive.

I didn’t know how to relate to my friends and family, 
And that came with a cost, 
I just thank this programme that I just ‘have today’ and that my life is going in a direction which can no longer get lost. 

“Poem for Amy”
Jason
15th May 2026

Public speaking

​Public speaking is a joy to do, 
Some people are terrified, but I tend to see nothing in the room. 

Then there is the reality of seeing complete strangers in the mist, 
What are you going to do, make them like you? Are you taking the piss?

You speak your story and and simply speak your mind, 
You are are not getting into debate, that does nothing to me… I find?

I don’t mind speaking in public, I can’t be anyone else
I appreciate not all people will understand you, well that’s those people’s opinion which needs to stay on the shelf. 

I am me, that’s all I can be
I am gregarious, speak my mind and say it as it is
But I also keep my politics close to my chest
I now in a place where I want peace.. and a that little bit of rest. 

Jason
15th May 2026

We are beautifully made… plus I don’t care…

​I don’t care if you worry about not having high cheek bones, 
Those attributes are not worth my conversation, 
You are beautifully made my the higher power.. that’s the words I rather hear …. That kind of creation.

I am me…
Nothing more, nothing less
Actually you are exceptionally special to your higher power,
Yet you won’t always accept those compliments, nor look to them to devour.

We are made as we are
I am humble with my appearance no matter what,
Life is to accept yourself on the inside, that’s the true essence you’ve got. 

You are who you are
There will no longer be any physical change,
The looks are what they are just hold yourself together the best you can, 
Gravity won’t change for anyone.. that’s where I take my stand.

Jason
15th May 2026

Always an addict…

​Some will understand this
Others will not, 
We are ‘all or nothing’ people and want to give addictions a heavy shot. 

But we are on the cusp of anger 
An almighty struggle within the mind, 
People saying ‘it will be alright at the end of the day’
They can simply leave this soul forever.. plus today.

I am an addict
I fight against the system because that is what we do, 
I hate politics or seeing the news, 
I know they influence our business, but do they really have a clue?

I live for today, that is all I can ask,
If you have no faith in me, then you have no place in life, these words I shan’t mask. 

I have messed up royally 
More than I thought possible, 
Yet I need to love myself again, 
And how do I do that? Praying to my higher power… the one which I look upon to depend.

Jason
15th May 2026

Waking up to a blessing

​don’t ever give up
Live your life to the full, 
There shall be trips and scraps, 
You are a blessing and accept that with grace,
We have all been to that awkward place.

Now you are out of that,
You shall start today, 
Can I promise you it will be okay?

Of course it will, do what works for you 
Do not aim to please others, this is your path to ensue. 

We only have today to look forward to,
People who have hurt us can be prayed for afar, 
I am here to serve my Father in heaven, and at the gym (where I am now) go HARD!

Jason
15th May 2026

You work it, if you work it

​A.A. is the programme of all programmes you ever want to understand 
we are in this together, we look to encourage each other as well as take a open stance.

I am not here to struggle no more, 
This programme works if you put the work in, 
The light of the situation is humbling, yet I suggest you attend meetings to refute any chance to sin.

We are there to support one another 
Encouragement is the place to be, 
I am humble in my walk with God… No one else needs to be privy.. nor need to see.

I am okay,
I am just a little emotional writing these forlorn of words, 
Remember you only have today, all the other stuff I am sure you have already heard?

Jason
14th May 2026 

There for each other…

​I want to be there for others
But I need to find myself first, 
I am struggling with my thoughts, but this time I refuse to cause any hurt. 

I am there for others and proud, and for those I have met on this journey, I am proud of what they have achieved,
I try to not understand my own thinking, as there is nothing inside of my head I want to retrieve. 

I have loved, lost and found 
God is my anchor which is so humble and profound. 

I want to be there for others and I genuinely want to shine
I know by the grace of God all shall be well… and all shall be fine.

Jason
14th May 2026

Tick tock, tick tock🕥

​tick tock
Tick tock 
No one knows when any of us will  reach heaven, or touch that spiritual moment to rest,
All we can do is wish for the best.

We pray and we stay
What else can we do, 
The reality is there is a prayer waiting for you. 

Promise me not to give in
And yes, life can be so unfair, 
We live for today, that’s all I personally care. 

Time ticks by
No chance of holding back time,
Be patient with yourself, and learn the art in what you got 
Remember to be kind to yourself, and don’t try not to be what you are not. 

Hold off with the text
Hold off being impulsive, that won’t get you to the goal you want to achieve,
Stay in the present, and balance the goal in what you believe. 

Jason
14th May 2026 

I thank you for this poem✍🏽…

​I thank you for today 
You have allow me to cry and see the way, 
I have had addictions 
That’s no depict, those actions are my fault,
You have allowed me to have today, a moment which I could have never bought. 

There is no hierarchy where I belong
Stay humble and pray to be strong,
The light shall pull you through, 
nothing else on this earth shall do. 

You can’t claim to be better than anyone else;
That feeling can clearly be parked on the shelf, 
Don’t wind me up, I’ll comeback quick
How dare you think I am at all thick. 

One minute you are a child, then 20, 30, 40 and 50 years old,
Remember thank you for today, your story is important to me, especially from the story I’ve just told.

Jason
14th May 2026

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My Yiayia Florenza

​My blessing and my life
I pray for her to return to me one day,
I am sure I’ll see her in heaven, as from that moment I’ll have no choice but to be okay.

Thank you God for her life,
She hardly spoke English but her language was clear to me,
She was calm, patient and loved all that she would be able to see.

She would make you a cup of tea, 
and she knew you would be thirsty without asking, 
She was my gentle friend, the kind one… who didn’t enter debate
She was an example to us all and showed up… and never turned up late.

I miss her still, 34 years since she passed,
She was my angel, as I was to her
The 30 plus years without has been nothing but a blur..

“Miss you yiayia…❤️🙏🏽”
Jason
14th May 2026

I thank my Dad…

​I thank my Dad each day
Despite he not being here, 
I miss him so much, 
He had a way about him that was a giving touch.

He was endearing and a solid friend, 
I miss him more than words can say, 
This is what I cherish, as selfishly I still wish him to stay. 

People don’t always know your story 
Nor can they live it for you, 
I am on my own my friend, what else can I do?

I miss my Dad
My brilliant, beautiful friend, 
We didn’t get on from the start
As there was one up man ship, which didn’t come from the heart. 

But he was ‘my Dad’
A Father, Husband, Uncle and friend to the people,
One thing for certain, you knew where you stood with him… and never call him feeble. 

Jason
13th May 2026

Angel taken too soon❤️

​Blessings and prayers come from us all, 
May God look after this angel, who was taken away far too soon, 
I pray for your comfort and that he is no longer in pain
Love and prayers stay with you forever, starting from that moment and also today.

Taken too soon
So sorry for your loss, 
There is always a price, when a life is taken away, 
it often comes through an unprepared measures as we look to instil comfort to persistently stay.

The prayers will bring you close to his spirit
As the love for you guys will always remain, 
The pain will move slowly, but the melancholy will unfortunately sustains. 

God has got you
The Spirit shall never leave,
Protection through prayers and love 
Your child shall be inside you always, as that feeling shall fit like wanting glove. 

“Condolences Sue and family. Take care and please reach out for a chat… ❤️”
Jason
13th May 2026 

Dear today’s diary

​dear diary 
How are you today? 
I am feeling ready for the gym
So I’ll put on my gym clothes and ‘go for it’…
I start with the rowing machine that is my first port,
And the weights thereafter, from there I shall retort.

I put on the superman theme music,
Knowing with a prayer things can’t go wrong, 
So I try my best and fight until the last push,
As the satisfaction is euphoric like a everlasting ‘whoosh…’

You see, you can’t stop
God won’t allow you to do that, 
The world don’t stop because of you, 
Yes, take your time if you need to balance your mental health in order to ensue. 

So as I write to the end of the sentence, 
I know I shouldn’t put on that washing machine when others are sleeping, that’s my repentance. 

It’s been another week of struggle 
Along with a few mini wins, 
Remember these words, especially when you feel unsure 
Believe it or not you are worth much much more. 

Jason
13th May 2026

A base

​Some of us have a base
Some have a bed to sleep at night, 
Often we are finding out end goal, when only today you have within sight.

I pray for people to live in a comfortable home
And that through a prayer to God they never feel alone. 

We all have gifts to write our thoughts down and refuse ideal gossip which can cause harm
This is a world of chaos, happiness and provoke
This world is full of education we could be ready to soak.

I look to be grateful and find the light
The battle is always with pride, and what does that achieve? Nothing worth to fight. 

Fight for the humility and beginning
As this safe space you crave for is always worth living.

“Housing… the big achieve to capture….”
Jason
12th May 2026

It’s a waiting game..

​Somethings in life just required your patience
You don’t think things will get better, but they do,
You won’t be able to fathom or find a snippet which is a clue. 

If you are not patient with yourself; how can others be patient WITH you?
Think about it? 
Tolerance of time is a balancing test
The impatience you have put yourself shall through..  has got you in this mess. 

It’s God’s will at the end of the day, 
Say your prayers at night, this doesn’t warrant a pat on the back,
You are a blessing for all that know you, from that place you shan’t ever slack.

Surround yourself with you or positive souls who shall encourage, 
Remember life is life a plate of food, it’s just waiting to be nourished. 

Jason
12th May 2026