That moment (The time Dad passed away)

​It was my turn to sleepover at the hospital that night,
We knew we were going to lose a great man, 
I laid next to him on his bed and played old 50s, 60s crooners songs
I felt unhappy but wanted the omnipresent Father to remove this pain from my Dad,
Unfortunately we all knew he weren’t going to make it…as we were inevitably feeling sad.

It was roughly 10pm, I kissed my Dad’s head and said ‘goodnight you git’,
I made sure the bed sheets were put over him, before I went to sleep on the bed next to him
We were all feeling a great loss awaiting to happen, 
We have all been there, facing a struggle you wished never took place
But I wanted God to take him because of the pain he endure.. and I don’t say those sort of words in haste.

I went to sleep 
And then at 00:03 hours I heard my name called,
“Jason”, I looked at the nurse… and knew he has passed,
I didn’t panic, I looked at my Dad and put my hand over his mouth, from there I felt his last breath
I contained my emotions and knew God took him away,
I was selfish… as dearly wanted him on this earth to stay. 

You see, my Dad was my protector from foes who didn’t have my back,
He didn’t take my shit too, and his determination never slacked. 

I called Mum and my 2 brothers to give the news, 
I was stunned as my Dad was a fighter, as I was deluded and even felt this fight he wasn’t able to lose.

I didn’t get on with Family members 
So I left the family home, 
We did our best to be a unit of support, but in truth I wanted to be alone.

I am entitled to my rights 
As I know people aren’t entirely bad, 
But connection is important for me.. and honoured to have him as my Dad.

I speak to him every day, my rock, my protector and the one who use to say “shut… your effing mouth, that’s nothing to do with you”
Boy, don’t I miss him now… as I felt my heart ripped out in episode that I inevitably lose.

The funeral took place on the 8th June 2023
My brother and I shared our thoughts about this great man who we gravely missed,
Dad, if you can hear me right now… remember my last act towards when I looked at your forehead and planted that good night kiss.

“I speak to those I want to speak to.. but this man.. I would miss until I’ll meet him one day in heaven. Love you Dad x 🙏🏽❤️”
Jason
18th May 2026