I wish…

​I wish I was into family 
But it’s hurt me too much to want to be apart,
I am struggle with loud conversations through this blood connection, as these Cypriots I prefer to look away from and depart.

I wish I was more homely
But I ostracised myself because of the pain felt inside,
You don’t have to understand me, so fuck it…as for me that’s no surprise.

I wish I was family orientated
Too many words hurt and have been said,
I waiting for God to take me… as I lay writing these words in my bed.

I wish I was more affable 
And wanting to be a family kind of guy,
But the honest truth is that too much has been said 
as I say my prayers which come from my heart and verbalise through my head.

Jason 
23rd May 2026