If you had to pray for anything?

​if you prayed for anything
What would it be? 
A cash delight
A hope of seeing the light to your future
Or what suits you best for the future.

If I prayed for anything, I would pray for a humble place and peace,’
Conversation that’s not debate and a humble retreat. 

The retreat would be in the fields, far away from people, 
Those types can rile and put a bad taste in your mouth.. you know? Those that are brittle and sometimes feeble. 

People can leave you be, 
Through that pattern you are often set free,
I push others away unless I want to talk to you, 
As it’s only God, or how you see him, to see you through. 

Jason
15th June 2026

Try not to over think…

​There will always be a time when you ask ‘am I doing the right thing?’
I wish I could make you decide? but these words are levity to make you pray and consequently think.

I too over think, and was told ‘you’re not very patient, are you?’
Yes, that’s right, I have made the mistakes
Yet it’s through the hope you bring to the table, 
moving away from that person that was once unsettled and tremendously unstable. 

Nothing to be ashamed of
What did you do wrong? Try? 
Somethings are not meant to be, yet there is a protective power out there, and will heal, especially when you cry.

‘Over thinking’ is a biggest killer in this world
It can make you fraught and stay with a problem for that bit too long, 
Remember you are a person on this earth, with all the fragilities and sometimes it’s okay to be wrong.

Jason
14th June 2026 

Pray before you speak…

​I can only thank my higher power for making others laugh
Or they laughing at me… especially when my banter can come across harsh!

I can only thank my higher power for telling me to keep my ‘mouth shut’
Not every question needs an answer or a solution; 
leave that discussion alone and do not delve into disillusion. 

We all have gifts which the lord provides, 
What is yours exactly? lifting others or thriving what only God can put for you to one side?

We all have love 
That nature comes from God, 
That nicety is a blessing that comes from the spirit that you cannot see, 
As in the end it’s a prayer of gratitude that allows you to…..be.

Jason.
14th June 2026

The journey… what awaits

​There is a time to reflect
There is time to detect, 
There is a time to go the right way but you wonder where that is?
You look to the bottle and then eventually get pissed.

You look to the skies and say ‘where are you God?’, 
Fighting with every breath to stop taking, or drinking,
When in essence you can’t stop sinking. 

The wake up call may or may not arrive, 
You have to work at it if you work it, and thats’s to stay alive!

I felt shite
Angered and disconnected, 
I was a Skelton of  the man that I am today, even though I am far from feeling perfected.

I know now I have another chance
A chance only God gave to me in the end, 
I have met incredible fellowship, attend anonymous meetings which I now need to take upon and look to depend. 

“You are only as good as the last meeting… love me”
Jason (alcoholic)
14th June 2026

They never leave you..

​People here for today
Some you choose to be around, 
You need hope in yourself and also with God, that’s what I have often found. 

I have loved, lost and cared for people still, 
It’s people getting the best out of you, that is my want when I am surreal. 

Don’t worry if you don’t have the last word, 
That win belongs to God in the end,
We have been blessed by having an angel that we often look towards and depend. 

Words that flow from my heart, head and then onto my fingers to this page
The passage of hope in God can never be refused, 
We have all fallen short the love of God shouldn’t be taken for granted or simply seen to amuse. 

Today is the present,
Tomorrow shall be a mystery, 
People not here today shall never be forgotten,
There is a higher power in you, that’s the place which loves, cherishes and humbly begotten. 

Jason
14th June 2026

Coming back….

​Hey brother Julius 
This is for you, 
I am your friend, fellow and brother, and by God’s grace I wish I had all the clues.

Hey brother Julius 
You are doing right, and you know it too,
We have that personality to keep taking and using 
We now know the consequences when we started abusing

Hey Julius 
This is a prayer for you, 
Remember through the times you question so much, 
This is your time to connect to your higher power that in your heart shall touch.

The 23rd June 2026 is the start of a new life, 
You will make friends and endure struggles, 
But that is life for you, a life we make choices to take and drink 
As time won’t stop for anyone… as you will find a new you… just before you blink. 

“For my brother Julius… you will smash it brother”
Jason
14th June 2026

“For my brother Julius… you will smash it brother”
Jason
14th June 2026

Here we are… (Addictions poem)

​Addicted for destruction
Living a life which I thought was best for me, 
Drinking and taking to oblivion, in a world that often no one can see. 

The chaos surrounds you 
You think the Devil is your best friend, 
It’s until you reach that moment, when that passage can’t do nothing for you to transcend. 

I crave for peace, 
I crave for light, 
I crave for wanting God to take charge,
I know the 12 steps isn’t easy for everyone to follow 
But I am an addict of alcohol, I need to hold this method otherwise I’ll wallow.

I have met fellows on this journey 
We put each other on the right path,
it’s only for so long we can be drinking and taking 
As there’s no delusion of this illness, otherwise we will continue to be breaking. 

“Speaking as an addict”
Jason
14th June 2026