Talking with God….

​God: What do you want my son?
Me: I don’t know, I suppose I am here for peace,
God: I love you, therefore, lay your problems into me… all your worries shall eventually cease.

Me: I wanted to be with my Dad,
God: He had to go away, yet he is looking over you now, so don’t worry son, the tear shall run dry from gentle brow.

Me: I love you God, but why is the world such a horrendous place?
God: People are intense and want everything now… 
It’s my timing we need to focus on, so don’t ever think about throwing in the towel..

Me: I am okay, I have spoken to you
God: I love you and my children, I know each of them are broken because they think their will shall prevail
Me: I know you know what’s best for us Father.. protect each and everyone of us, as we all kneel and take that bow.

Jason - Alcoholic (573 days sober)
5th July 2026

Proud of you… Matthew✍🏽

​Believe it or not, I am looking over you
There is a faith inside of us, a spiritual one that requires an open feet and no clue.

God keeps us together, 
As tomorrow’s never promised, 
Time to be at peace with the Lord, 
I know you are on earth my child by my eyes are fixed on you… to humble accord. 

We will all face trials,
Just open up to the breaks we have inside, 
It’s not about confidence my child, God takes you in however you come
it’s your walk with God, the father, son and spirit in one. 

I am proud of you
Never forget that, 
You touch many souls, despite the anger you possess, 
Stay with God my child, you are his after all… he accepts you through your faults and your mess. 

I love you Matthew 
You are a child who has grown into a fine young man,
Be thankful towards the ones who let you grow,
It’s your time to shine in the Lord.. as the Father in heaven always knows.

“Well done Matthew, proud…. Your journey continues……”
Jason
5th July 2026

I heard this beautiful saying…

​I heard this beautiful saying: ‘Life is God’s gift to us, it’s what we do with it is our gift from God’,
You see, a life with God is humbling and connected, 
I don’t need to be around negativity, or today they call it ‘realism’.. as my breaks are clear and often perfected.

I love these sayings which I have peacefully heard, 
We can’t remove ourselves from hatred unless we pray to God, 
He keeps you on solid ground restores the break that you felt inside
If you don’t understand? that’s okay fine.. but one day the lord will show himself.. close, far and even wide. 

He is omnipresent, 
Meaning he is there all of the time, 
Say a prayer, and don’t always say it at the point when you are low,
Thank him everyday for the air you breathe
And that love shall always be received. 

There’s another saying which I heard, from a Japanese proverb:
‘Everyone needs to fill their rice bowl’, which relays to my heart that everyone needs to grow spiritually each day
Learning from these breakages that are around today,
So speak your truth quietly, or perhaps say nothing at all,
May God be with you always, he is always…… especially when you begin to fall. 

“Speak your truth with love and peace”
Jason
5th July 2026

If you question?

​God is so good
And when you are on a stand still and still blaming you!
You don’t need a mobile phone to speak to God.. say a prayer to imbue.

The conversation is clear 
Whatever you have faced.. addictions and suffering caused by a loss,
Remember Jesus died for you and I.. on that cross.

Life with God is great
Life with God is real,
He brings you love and understanding from others that’s surreal.

If you question? That’s okay
But remember this! There is a spirit of love and hope, which forever remains.

Jason - Alcoholic (573 days sober)
5th July 2026

Keep at it …

​The journey never stops
So Workout hard, 
Give it your all
Move the blood, and don’t mind if you fall.

You are trying
And that’s what counts,
This life was never going to be easy
Yet you come with an assumption, you’ll do all things freely.

And if you start the day with a question, bring it to God
Place it in his timing
This world that we live in makes no sense with all the conflicts that are surmising.

Today is a challenge
But it’s you in whom you need to focus on,
Don’t compare yourself with others, that’s not your business to find.
Concentrate on your recovery, others shall make it eventually, in their own time.

Jason
5th July 2026

This sober journey

​A relation said to me: “You have been sober for over a year; do you need to attend anymore meetings?”
“Yes” is the answer as the programme is aimed for you to stop self deprecating and defeating. 

We as alcoholics, and once very angry people to the excess, 
People who haven’t been to that place or can’t focus on our ‘all or nothing’ ways
They haven’t got that desire to continue drinking, that state of mind was ours, which we once wanted to stay.

We can only stay on this earth for so long
People who are in the rooms of A.A.,are seeking a new power that shall make you strong,
They need to attend to give a share on how they are feeling
The alcohol is so blinded, you don’t know when you are reeling.

I am in the rooms 
I speak to people about my sobriety, and I listen to them, as we crave peace, 
Step 1 to 3 surrendering to a higher power and learning that you can’t go on through my own accord
The other steps are actions, which can be painful; but on the other side you shall never get bored. 

Recovery is a gift 
Because you are here to tell the tale,
We say the pledge and reflections of the day
I speak to God always, and you don’t need to phone to get through,
Today is a blessing, and thank you for your higher power for the chance to be present and looking at the similarities in the rooms.

Jason - Alcoholic (572 days sober)
4th July 2026

Beep beep (Insulin pump ❤️)

​Bloody hell, that alarm hits again
Therefore prayerfully yourself with people who are able to help, 
If they panic, tell them to leave you alone, as you need to react to raise bloods sugars will be priority at that moment in time
Help me somebody! But you can’t rely on anyone who panics or just stares, and that is the truth
And if  you snap back at someone, then you appear as rude. 

You see, I was around a controlling person 
A person who wanted to control me, 
They said they didn’t want to do that, 
But with diabetes you need to f.ck people off regardless how sensitive you are,
You are seeking a solution ‘there and then’ and if you don’t understand? Then off you go.. as removing myself from you.. quite far. 

The condition is dangerous
Hypos, injections and dextrose as this is part of our on going life,
A higher power is in our control 
We seek temperament to react to deal with this and not go slow. 

Especially those people will stare and don’t give you a sugary drink, 
Some will lack empathy and others talk, thinking of a solution,
You don’t need to hear their words, as hypos don’t have patience for advice or chit chat,
The rising of blood sugars is what you NEED… at a drop of a hat.”

Jason - Alcoholic, Diabetes (Type 1) and child of the God.
4th July 2026