Beep beep (Insulin pump ❤️)

​Bloody hell, that alarm hits again
Therefore prayerfully yourself with people who are able to help, 
If they panic, tell them to leave you alone, as you need to react to raise bloods sugars will be priority at that moment in time
Help me somebody! But you can’t rely on anyone who panics or just stares, and that is the truth
And if  you snap back at someone, then you appear as rude. 

You see, I was around a controlling person 
A person who wanted to control me, 
They said they didn’t want to do that, 
But with diabetes you need to f.ck people off regardless how sensitive you are,
You are seeking a solution ‘there and then’ and if you don’t understand? Then off you go.. as removing myself from you.. quite far. 

The condition is dangerous
Hypos, injections and dextrose as this is part of our on going life,
A higher power is in our control 
We seek temperament to react to deal with this and not go slow. 

Especially those people will stare and don’t give you a sugary drink, 
Some will lack empathy and others talk, thinking of a solution,
You don’t need to hear their words, as hypos don’t have patience for advice or chit chat,
The rising of blood sugars is what you NEED… at a drop of a hat.”

Jason - Alcoholic, Diabetes (Type 1) and child of the God.
4th July 2026

Coming back… and stay

​That’s what we do… return
Keep coming back,
from the world we once were seen, 
It’s no longer about the places that we’ve once been.

You have free will after all
You need to find a solution, repeating yourself can often lead to a spiritual call. 

Keep coming back, you can do this,
And surrender to your highest power, that shall guide you,
Alcoholic and addictions, where all knees shall bow down,
The programme is to simply stay 
Fellows are here not to judge but share, 
We don’t enter into a place to risk or dare.

So welcome to the programme of A.A. 
The people are broken, and admit they are powerless and left it to a higher power,
Stick with the belief of God which sits inside,
Today is a good day.. therefore, now enjoy this spiritual ride.

Jason - Alcoholic (572 days sober)
4th July 2026

Closure.. for peace of mind…

​Somethings in life needs closure, 
People dragging their feet, and making the situation emotionally draining 
Is anything in this life manageable or sustaining?

The conversations gets to the business end, where things need to be decided
Wallowing in the head, is something straining and quite divided. 

The art is to say nothing at all, 
The art is to be comfortable with your peace,
Sometimes that is hard for people to accept in their frantic minds, especially times like today
It’s like that classic when you speak to God and ask “Please take those noises away”. 

We are all people with hopes and wants
Sometimes you tire yourself out and working out this walk you haven’t figured out yet, and perhaps never will
Try to find your pendulum, and let it stay in the middle 
Don’t let it sway too much… so you don’t find yourself in that quandary when you are in a pickle. 

Jason - Alcoholic and type 1 with diabetes (meaning I don’t produce insulin. 👍🏾) and enjoys love
3rd July 2026 

Who knows what today has in store?

​In my own thoughts, I struggle how I am feeling
Some are consistent with their approach, and others are looking to emotionally stealing.

You see, what I have found out is that I am scared;
And people shall ask myself why?
Do I say, ‘leave me alone?’ I just want to be in a safe place and put my head down… and cry.

But don’t worry, the important thing is that I have released, 
I feel better for that feeling, as I am not a robot, where technically I am processing today;
I am a human being, capable of love, hurt, production and giving it my all
I just want to stay stable.. just for now…and refuse to hurl in a human ball. 

You see, my words in my poems are pretty much the same
But they are words of what we suppress inside, 
You are never alone, so pick up the phone and call a service or a friend
It’s not solutions you are looking for… so pray to God, a moment you won’t need a mobile phone to depend.

“Don’t do this alone’
Jason
3rd July 2026

Sober… just for today

​I am grateful to life
A new beginning, and a new way of living 
I wished I did this programme of the steps before.
It was sugggested: ‘can’t you go, just to have one?’
I know myself too well, I drink fast and end up spending a lot of money…..definitely over a ton.

I am grateful for today
And today I need to be selfish, and take action for me, 
Yet, I may be criticised for my impulsive ways
Today, I am focused, and aim not to stray. 

Hello, I am Jason, I am a alcoholic, 
And I am a grateful one….at that, 
I every now and then I go to my local, just to put myself through a test
I know through my higher power, I am seeking to be blessed.
I am here today
I am here tomorrow, that’s what I hope for too,
Today I have a life worth living 
And plenty of love to show, especially when I am writing poetry and the love I am giving. 

I struggle each day
I want to pick up, so I call a fellow alcoholic and tell them of my temptations 
We have all faced trails and tribulations.

I am thankful that i am sober today… just today.
Praying for this disease to away. 
The programme of 12 steps is powerful and quite simple,
I put in the work and don’t ever want to look back
I pray to God always, and that today I won’t be able to slack.

Jason - Alcoholic (571 days sober)
3rd July 2026

Dear you❤️✍🏽

​Dear you, thank you so much
Just being in your presence is a meaningful touch. 

Dear you, 
I pray for us all each day, 
Staying strong in spirit, and finding what to do next,
Perhaps do nothing, there’s no need to send an instigators text.  

Dear you,
Today is a blessing as I am grateful I am here, 
The light shining on each of us through the prayer that we share.

Dear you
Thank you for being amazing,
I pray to God for love and hope, especially at the point I am eagerly anticipating.

Jason
3rd July 2026

Friday is here to stay

​Have a wonderful life
Enjoy each moment in salvation,
Today is a new day to be embraced 
Take Friday for instance, one to humble yourself and taste. 

Look to your soul
Look towards the light, 
There is an angel there protecting your every spiritual fight. 

It starts today
Yes, right now, 
Don’t worry for worrying solves nothing at that time,
That makes you unwell and lacking focus to the mind. 

I am grateful for today
Nothing shall enter in harms way,
Stay here to fight, love and live
Today is the important thing that we are able to give.

Jason
3rd July 2026