A.A.

​admitting I am a alcoholic was only a matter of time
People thought I wasn’t, 
They saw me on the outside and thought I was okay
When in my heart I wanted to drink and no longer stay.

I want to be with God
I want to be on my own,
I know my family weren’t capable to support
They are damaged through the trails which they also fought.

I then say I want to be on my own 
I feel I am safer, as it’s only my voice I want to hear,
When honestly it’s I am arguing with.. But the Father is the only one who wants to be near.

today I have made new friends
Friends, who are also broken and do not know the way
I stay humble in my heart, as slowly the swearing and crying is let out at times you didn’t want to obey.

I am crying as I write these words 
Yet they shall quickly dry up through kindness I’ve heard,
Today is a new day, pray and be at peace with your higher power 
The light of your life needs to start with positive words… words which shall arrive within the hour.

Jason
14th March 2026

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There are people to help..

​God puts you in places where you can receive help,
You may not believe in those words, despite the lack of belief and a need to ‘yell’
How many times did I fell.

I lost my Father, my best friend as nothing seems to have been the same
I am in a comfy room writing this poem 
Yet these are words I am trying to understand where I am going.

I write to ask for forgiveness a place I cannot see,
I pray to be with God and the people who are no longer here,
They were of good stock, yet it is God who I often fear. 

I miss you guys, 
I miss the way you stood up when odds were against, 
I am trying my best to be myself, as no longer stand on the fence.

Jason
14th March 2026

Writing these words

​I lost a friend or two, on this journey called ‘life’
I know I need to care for myself first, through a prayer to remove strife. 

I lost a friend, more than one, two and three…
I miss them all; especially I miss my Dad, Nan and Auntie today
I can’t believe they are not here to guide me as sometimes I don’t want to stay.

The people I have around, they can cause me plenty of grief 
I want to hit them on this journey, but what shall that solve.. nothing, as there’s no relief.

I want to be left alone
I want to be around laughter and joy,
I want to be with God always,
But through he wants me to connect
Today feelings we are unable to forget. 

Jason
14th March 2026

Forgiveness…. The mountain to overcome

​Forgiveness is the mountain to overcome
Forgiveness is the place we all need to reach as one. 

Yet it can be hard for some
And difficult for others, 
For me, it’s a mountain to climb
I am okay today, I just need some time.

I want to be on my own
As today I want peace,
Forgiveness comes from within
The hatred often leads to sin.

Forgiveness is the key for your life
I don’t need to hear people, as a punch bag takes that place
I need to speak God first and write these words which replaces distaste. 

Jason
14th March 2026

The start of forgiveness

​Forgiveness is hard
I feel it everyday, 
When I am not around certain people I do feel okay, 
I leave forgiveness to God before I go to bed I lay.

I need to let go
If you feel alone, then that is what resentment does 
It’s through God in whom you need to trust. 

Today is a day I haven’t said a swear word, especially to those who have done me wrong
I pray to God first because he will judge me in the end
He shall look at my wrong doings, even though I felt I have done few is truly what we depend.

Forgiveness and kindness are not too far apart
When we met God today, releasing forgiveness needs to come from a pray and heart. 

Jason
14th March 2026

Feeling somber

​Feeling alone?
Or feeling strong?
Does anyone on this earth belong?

I prefer distance so I don’t get angry
Even the thoughts going through my head cause chaos and riot
A punch in a face won’t cause any just
But then again, just the thinking of it we shouldn’t trust. 

I am here today
Not tomorrow 
I have faced many problems, including sorrows.

People who I would kick to the curb
I no longer want in my life to cause chaos and disturb, 
These people haven’t got the guts to say this to my face
I suppose I miss my Dad still, that comfort I shall always embrace.

Jason
13th March 2026

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Our Mental Health

​Haven’t we all been there
Struggling with our mental health, 
We all have it, nor can it go away
The art is for it leave us soon and don’t allow our brain to fray.

That’s why I exercise
To to get the dopamine out, 
I have struggled with this all my life, not having the family support available 
None of that family stuff left on the table. 

Sometimes we are alone 
And for me that is what I accept, 
It’s between myself and God today
The best place to stay humble remove the cobwebs away.

I am blessed to have people to have known 
They have gifts to provide me support when I thought family would be there,
Sometimes it’s the outer circle who want to be their for you.. as they are the one’s who geninuely care.

Jason
13th March 2026