It’s almost time

​it’s almost that anniversary, the one you don’t want to remember 
Three years ago my friend passed away,
I feel melancholy still and a little sad as I recall he couldn’t stay.

I was numb
Didn’t know where to turn,
I asked God to take me away too, I didn’t want to be around others therefore I too looked to burn.

But the reality I am here today
Missing that old baster’ as I now refuse to fray.

It hurts when the17th May arrives 
I know today, God wants me here to continue writing poems in order to strive.

I miss you Andrea’s Andreo, my good ol ‘ Dad and dependable friend 
I talk to him everyday, as one day we all shall descend.

“One of May poems for the legend.., Dad xx’
Jason 
15th May 2026

Common sense

​You see they call it accountability, acknowledgement and other elaborate words
We call it in the past good old common sense’, those words I would often refer.

When words are articulately said 
When only mone needs to be mentioned,
I acknowledge the simplicity of the action that’s my comprehension.

They say common sense isn’t common
That’s because people need to say a lot when actually little needs to be said
So you aren’t saving your oxygen when a forlorn words are often unnecessary read.

I simply pray to God to ask why is this life is such a mess,
I get told to listen and pray, you don’t need anything less.

You see occum razor which means ‘the obvious answer is often the correct one’
I follow that guidance because I prefer not to say a lot of words when actually I rather say none .. 🤣

Jason
15th May 2026

Recovery never ends….

​Does recovery ever end
That depends on the situation to make amends. 

You see, the 12 steps are powerful
The S.M.A.R.T. programme also shows it worth, 
It depends on the individual, the language is hard and it does work. 

Recovery is my life now
I won’t want to taste a drink again, 
I just need to follow the programme, and allow my higher power to guide
this is putting in the hard work and avoid to subside.

Recovery is a journey 
Or a place you choose to be, 
It’s all about free will and the work you shall put in
Today you are blessed by saying a prayer through the process that you choose
This is for winners only .. as you have already experienced the moments when you once use to lose.

Jason
15th May 2026

The story… from and to..✍🏽

​So here today and ready to tell my story 
This is about me and you… I was chaos and felt I needed the chaos which came with glory..

You see., 5 years back I lost my job, and my son was put down and needed to do time
I was wondering where my life was going? What can I do, my brain wasn’t at all fine.

I was domestically abused and faced a torrential amount of hurt 
I lost myself and then my sister passed away, as honestly I didn’t know my worth.

You see, this can happen to you or I
What do I want to do, stay here on this broken earth or face the possibly to wanting to die. 

I found a way, only by the grace of God
My higher power kept me alive,
How on earth did I overcome these emotions in a period I didn’t want to survive.

I didn’t know how to relate to my friends and family, 
And that came with a cost, 
I just thank this programme that I just ‘have today’ and that my life is going in a direction which can no longer get lost. 

“Poem for Amy”
Jason
15th May 2026

Public speaking

​Public speaking is a joy to do, 
Some people are terrified, but I tend to see nothing in the room. 

Then there is the reality of seeing complete strangers in the mist, 
What are you going to do, make them like you? Are you taking the piss?

You speak your story and and simply speak your mind, 
You are are not getting into debate, that does nothing to me… I find?

I don’t mind speaking in public, I can’t be anyone else
I appreciate not all people will understand you, well that’s those people’s opinion which needs to stay on the shelf. 

I am me, that’s all I can be
I am gregarious, speak my mind and say it as it is
But I also keep my politics close to my chest
I now in a place where I want peace.. and a that little bit of rest. 

Jason
15th May 2026

We are beautifully made… plus I don’t care…

​I don’t care if you worry about not having high cheek bones, 
Those attributes are not worth my conversation, 
You are beautifully made my the higher power.. that’s the words I rather hear …. That kind of creation.

I am me…
Nothing more, nothing less
Actually you are exceptionally special to your higher power,
Yet you won’t always accept those compliments, nor look to them to devour.

We are made as we are
I am humble with my appearance no matter what,
Life is to accept yourself on the inside, that’s the true essence you’ve got. 

You are who you are
There will no longer be any physical change,
The looks are what they are just hold yourself together the best you can, 
Gravity won’t change for anyone.. that’s where I take my stand.

Jason
15th May 2026

Always an addict…

​Some will understand this
Others will not, 
We are ‘all or nothing’ people and want to give addictions a heavy shot. 

But we are on the cusp of anger 
An almighty struggle within the mind, 
People saying ‘it will be alright at the end of the day’
They can simply leave this soul forever.. plus today.

I am an addict
I fight against the system because that is what we do, 
I hate politics or seeing the news, 
I know they influence our business, but do they really have a clue?

I live for today, that is all I can ask,
If you have no faith in me, then you have no place in life, these words I shan’t mask. 

I have messed up royally 
More than I thought possible, 
Yet I need to love myself again, 
And how do I do that? Praying to my higher power… the one which I look upon to depend.

Jason
15th May 2026