18 months (sobriety poem)

​18 months of sobriety 
How did I reach this place? 
I haven’t got a clue,
Well yes I do!
It was through mercy and grace
Thank you Lord, I can now seek and embrace. 

I want to be with you Lord 
I want to face the struggles with more in reserve, 
This is a moment which I need to celebrate…. As I now look to serve.

I am now fighting the fight 
I am now winning… and not looking back, 
I have my resolve but It’s the Lord who shan’t allow me to slack.

18 months and counting
I never wanted to hit the drink and drugs on how hard I hit, 
The Lord believed in me, as I no longer feel hit.

“18 months sober”
Jason
9th May 2026

Take your time… today

​There is no rush
Impatience belongs to you and the others,
I rather take my time… a gentle pattern to take
Rather than rush, make mistakes and then eventually break.

Pay attention attention
Do for more than a minute,
It’s your recovery we are fixing, and you need to be within it.

This is your time
A time to reflect and no longer need to beat yourself up, 
You are only promised today.. I have said that a countless times
This is your journey… which we are looking to refine. 

Today you are here 
Have a coffee, tea, a piece of toast, go for a walk or to the gym, 
Remember you are here to serve, as well as to win.

Jason 
10th May 2026

Keep myself to myself.

​Connection is all what we need,
People shall come with their traumas, but how do we grow? and how do we also feed?

Connection is powerful 
But being on my own runs true, 
I believe in God with all my heart, I won’t impose my beliefs onto anyone, especially you.

You see, I love who I love
And that comes through a higher power, 
Never give into your hopes and dreams,
Time may be limited for many.. well that what it seems!

So Iove who you choose to love
As I don’t need to be present in their company to show my care?
I guide my heart with humility, and when I want to, I will offer my share.

Jason
9th May 2026

Fudge 🐈‍⬛❤️🙏🏽✍🏽

​I can see you Dad, 
You can’t see me, but one day you shall, 
So this isn’t goodbye my friend, as one day you shall see my fury tail. 

Dad, thank you for loving me
Dad, thanks for all of your loving care,
thank you for feeding me, and reassuring me that you will always be there.

I am not far away
I love you more than you know, 
I am not a ‘was’, I am still an ‘is’,
As I know you are thinking of me…and there is a gap, which you shall always miss.

You see! I am here
I am not far away, 
You may not be able to see me right now,
I can see you loved me so much and for that I am eternally grateful 
I pray to heavens that one day… just one day…. That the light shall shine and always show us the love to be faithful. 

“Love from Fudge… I am right here…🐈‍⬛”
To Tom
Jason
9th May 2026

You are better than you know….

I am proud of you my friend
You won’t give in, as I know you have your honour to defend.
 
Don’t give up Matthew,
You have been a great friend to someone like me,
Yes, I like my distance with all people…. But thank you for giving me a lifeline… and a chance to see.
 
I am not giving in on you
I may be in the background speaking a lot
But it’s your driving that’s a test of character.. as I know it’s something you have always got..
 
So don’t give up
I have done that before,
It doesn’t’ give you a chance to move forward, and not knowing technology isn’t always sore.
 
So be kind to you
Never give in,
This is your time to shine my friend… and let the world know you are here to win.
​
“Matthew… my brother”
Jason
9th May 2026

Thinking of you.. always ❤️

​I think of you during the day
I think of you during the night, 
I know God put this plan together…he has conjured up this light.

we wondered what was happening
I definitely didn’t know what was going on?
I thought to myself: ‘That’s it, I’ve had enough of relationships’, this isn’t a place I wanted to belong.

Yet, I say this and it must hurt your ears
Sorry, I don’t mean to rely any fears,
But the day is here and we are in love
Nothing on this place can shatter this spiritual realm from up above.

Ruth.. I love you
This poem has your name on it all day,
Just remember God made this happen and through the path of light we shall be okay.

“A poem for Ruth ❤️”
Jason
9th May 2026

More resolve less to solve (Well done Jamie)

​Well done Jamie, 
You have made the 18 month mark, 
You have endured, fought and dutifully served 
You have focused, spoken and within your heart you have heard.

You have been loyal to a fault
and you are there for others, and through the 12 steps you been taught. 

Well done you
You have tried so hard to get to this place; 
Like you, we fought harder and harder 
It doesn’t matter that the past has done
You are here just for today.. and wonderfully won.

You serve and give it your all
And you serve some more, pick yourself up despite the fall.

None of us are perfect from this chaos we have created
this madness is like politics, it goes nowhere and what does it lead to? a place we have hated. 

That is drink and drugs for you, or call it what you will
You are a fighter my friend, and through the hope of belief in you and higher power… you have started this recovery to continued to have healed.

“Well done Jamie.. proud of you. ❤️”
Jason
10th May 2026