I’ve always been an addict

​Am I suppose to be ashamed
People not understanding this addiction which I was unable to refrain.

People judge, that’s a natural reaction, 
There needs to be balance and this path ends with little satisfaction. 

But you did what you did, and well done for coming this far, 
Multiple years, 
18 months?
Or even 24 hours without a snort or drink,
The fact you started this new life shall make you start to think.

Remember you are loved by God
And Fellows will encourage you to get on the right path, 
Tomorrow is never guaranteed, so enjoy this ‘new day’ and ‘new week’ 
Pray to God first… this passage shall no longer become meek.

Jason
4th May 2026

Jason

A life no less borrowed

​We live in auspicious times
Working out our hearts and our minds. 

No stone goes unturned as today is a blessing,
Today is a gift from God, along with plenty of testing. 

Give it your all,
Live for today, 
Stop thinking of Me, even though your strength requires to stay. 

Leave on good terms with people
Say “I love you” in a spiritual way; 
As all you are promised is the humility of today. 

Jason
4th May 2026

When I first admitted I had a problem.

​When I first admitted I had a problem
I knew it was something I couldn’t control, 
I did the classic thing, didn’t drink for a few days, then it hit me… this disease needed to go.

I still miss it
the liquor down my throat, 
The way it made me feel, giving me a bit of Dutch courage to excite that moment 
When really I needed hope, before this exacerbated and went hellbent.

I want a drink now
I want a drink to calm me down, 
I am not in a system where I can act like a child, meaning shout and overload,
I later call Samaritans, they are the Angels that are blessed to have always showed. 

This disease gets you
Please don’t do what hit me and others before, 
This is now a time of reflection, these shares in A.A. could never become a bore.

Jason
3rd May 2026

Remembered

​be remembered for your kindness
And how you made others laugh,
You won’t please all people, even those you who you love
Yet your blueprint is heavens always, and marked above.

Be remembered for good acts,
Yes, you can’t save the world.. or perhaps just once!
Believe in your presence, we all have that delicate hunch.

Be reminded for your light mindedness,
And if you aren’t that way inclined then here is a virtual hug,
And if you don’t accept that gesture, then I’ll go off and pray afar
Your last moment with me shall be telling, so take this opportunity as the world is already too hard.

It’s not about lip service 
So be remembered, Rome wasn’t built in a day,
As long as you believe in the gratitude you say… all in heaven shall be okay.

Jason
3rd May 2026

Sleep today

​Before we go to bed we thank the higher power that we remain here
I am not on borrowed time now, nor would I want anything else to elevate fear.

I am sad I need to leave one day, but think about it..? no more pain.. simply peace
For those who don’t believe in an higher power, just remember ‘he loves you’, those are the truth
Make sure you pray before the days through 
Tomorrow shall arrive with another page for you to seek further clues.

And when that time arrives, there will be no more arguments, 
No more paying bills, 
No more wondering what to do next, 
There is Zion to look forward to, a place of hope and no writing another text.

When tomorrow goes 
The spirit guides you to the place you need to be, 
No more borrowed time, or seeking how to stay
I know peace on earth is humility which gives me hope all shall be okay.

Jason
3rd May 2026

All we want is a chance

​I have made my mistakes
I feel the tide has been against me, 
Blessed to have a Father on our side.. sometimes I feel I am in chains but really I am free.

Time stops for no one
No one, you me or anyone else,
We are trying our best to stay positive, as long as we keep our health.

But in time that will eventually fade
Often or not, we feel we are facing a tirade. 

We are here to work it through
Enter into a project to find peace,
Thank you lord I need a chance to release. 

I want a base, that’s all I ask
I know the UK is struggling right now with places to stay,
But I know by faith.. that I and others shall be okay.

“Looking for a place to stay…. Until I met the father in heaven.”
Jason
3rd May 2026

Birthday light (Poem for Anne)

​Birthday blessings to you my dear sister, 
You ascended to this earth through God’s love to imbue,
This birthday message is especially for you.

A mother, 
A grandmother and a wonderful friend, 
Looking to God for humility and prayer
He is your omnipresent… and everywhere. 

Anne, I pray for you on this day
Tomorrow is never promised but gratitude for making it today,
Love in Christ is shall bring you hope, this is encouragement towards you that I relay.

Thank you for doing what you do
God loves you more and more each day,
Thank you for allowing me to write this poem on your behalf, as I know the Father is protecting you…..always.

“Happy Birthday Anne….❤️🦋✍🏽🙏🏽”
Birthday message for the 2nd May…. 
Jason
3rd May 2026