Are you sure?

​“are you sure? 
Or maybe we would hear the word “perhaps?”
Fickle prolonged questions to drag in a conversation,
Yes or no, that’s my length for those types through my explanation.

To be tentative means you want to talk more, 
I know have a higher power to talk to, so the source is mine to explore.

It’s overwhelming when people want to chat, chat and chat,
If you are not on the same page or they speak the obviously as they were born in 1940 or 1950s,
Only kidding, people of that generation come in various forms,
I rather be patient, still and leave my words through the choice of words that I reform.

Go for a walk
Or say “can you make me laugh”
The issue here people delve in the serious,
Have a laugh at their expense, or perhaps impersonate them.. their voice can be deafening and mysterious.

“If you can’t hit them.. take the pee out of them”
Jason 
27th July 2026

Justify myself to my creator❤️

​the only one I need to justify myself too is my creator,
The one who made despite what I do now or even later!

I speak to him each day
Confessions of my sins, the ones present and the past
I pray for forgiveness, as I know nothing ever lasts. 

I pray for my addiction to remain removed,
That I live a new life in sobriety and the fellows I have met have said words of warmth which have soothed. 

I am who I am 
But I know I can never be perfect in any shape or form,
As long I focus on Jesus, that’s the area I look to conform.

Jason
27th July 2026

All different

​Whatever you opinion
We are all made different in the eyes of God,
This makes the world go round and round,
The harmony of goodness in ourselves is often profound. 

I rather look at humour,
Some people take things serious, 
I am a ‘humour kind of person’ and sometimes act a bit delirious. 

But I am who I am….
No one can ever change that to be fair, 
My thinking may be rational and logical,
But in my heart God is right there as I remain philosophical. 

Thank you for your warmth
And thank you for your kindness of acts that we are all waiting to forgo, 
The situation with each other is all in God’s timing can either be fast or slow.

Jason
27th July 2026

Starting again

​You can always start again
Can’t you my humble friend?
You can learn to train
Learn to be strong
And ultimately with God, you can return to and belong.

Simple words that easily could be said,
Holding onto hope through books or stories read.

You simply need to believe today is all we are promised, 
We can laugh, cry and care 
The most important thing God of our understanding… you are their. 

A new week
And a new life,
Getting the blood pumping 
As often my head is thumping.

I may be talkative or at times be silent,
As long I have God in my heart, I know I can be defiant.

Jason - Alcoholic (595 days sober)
27th July 2026

Trust…

​You trust when someone isn’t talking about others
Gossip is fickle and has no place for I,
I am a silent type when required
God holds me up, I am not here to be idled or admired.

One day I shall leave this earth and poetry is what I am remembered for,
Shining a light for a moment, that’s all
The rise of the beginning and end of a fall.

So as I say goodbye
I pray to God time and time again,
There is always hope, love shall be available to transcend.

I have broken down so many times,
Tomorrow is a master as I seek positivity to find.

So be prayed for, just this moment today
Love will overcome spitefulness, as these words shall end with a full stop, now be on your way…

Jason 
26th July 2026

I never said how much I needed that Latte….

​I never was told how much I needed that hug?
It can make all the difference from someone doing something in haste
As I looked to takemy life…. In God’s eyes that would be a waste.

On that day., I was looking to call it a day,
On the outside I was troubled and struggling with my thoughts 
Missing the people who are no longer here, which is a constant haunt. 

You did save me, 
No matter how emotionally disconnected you may have felt, 
I troubled with my thought during and looking towards a  pointless aim
As I wanted God to.take me away… there and then
You sat me down and provided me with a hot Latte, I think? 
It was your company that saved me.. including that drink!😉

As time passes, which we know none of us can control 
But on that hot day in July 2025, 
you spoke with me… as I thank God brought me to you… 
this is life after all, a precious gift from God, which not everyone of us appreciates ore knew

“Thank you Costa… for saving my in July 2025🙏🏽”
26th July 2026
Jason

A message for the diabetes team… a poem

I won’t get political….
I leave that with people who want to fight our corner 
Do not pull the plug on money, even though there are others who try their luck
But this condition shan’t go away
The auto-immune condition honestly doesn’t have a place to stay.

So as I go out for a walk and wonder what to expect?
I know this could be anyone of us, living with a tad of apprehension
But losing control of your blood sugar.. well that is apprehension.

Insulin to open the enzymes 
Where the insulin opens the enzyme chamber, 
We are here for today only 
The damage of the organs we can’t avoid
We have to accept the hurt, this isn’t to be toyed. 

So thank you for reading this note, including the other  poem too
Learning to calculate the food consumption to ensure insulin is injected correctly 
Making sure all is sync synced accurately and gently.
This life living as a diabetic isn’t based on ‘perhaps’ but it’s based on absolutes.. ​but what do I know? I only live with this.
Jason
26th July 2026