If others can do it, so can I

​I am in a predicament
I am nervous, and I don’t know why?
I am not scared, just a little apprehensive, as I dislike those words which express a ‘goodbye’.

This is temporary
Find a life or path you will walk on,
You’ll never know? You shall enter a path you may belong.  

I refuse to be an avarice
I am not in this world for my own gain, 
I love those who I love, but life is on life’s terms, therefore be open and aim to maintain. 

You are doing the right things 
No point feeling angst anymore; 
Negative talk is no longer part of my life, 
those who entertain that notion will eventually have to learn, 
As now through this opportunity awaits and from which I shall discern.

Jason
17th August 2026

A new start

​hey don’t be sad
Looking for a new beginning is hard at first,
Life is a series of moments as this isn’t a rehearse. 

You shall keep going 
And you’ll find your way,
It will be different, learning new places to be
God is with… don’t worry, you’ll find a new form of free.

Leaving behind the chaos 
And the madness which elevates everyday,
Believe in yourself, you shall be alright during this stay.

Treat it like a holiday
You are staying there because you need to regroup and rest, 
Remember this is a path to walk.. as you shall soon feel blessed.

Jason - Alcoholic (615 days sober)
16th August 2026

When I wanted to die….

​when I wanted to die you were there,
When I wanted to die, you showed there’s another heart to share.

When I wanted to die, I wanted to meet my maker
But you held my hand in A&E when I wanted to call it quits
My mind was full of destruction and in utter bits.

Next week Birmingham 
Perhaps forever or maybe for little while,
You gave me a home when I lost my guile.

I held my distance because words caused hurt to my feelings
I lost my best friend, as I was losing this life and constantly seething.

I know a new beginning calls as tears fill my eyes,
God asked me to write this poem… and to you.. that’s no surprise.

“Thanks Nikki & Matthew x I say little as my head can only take so much.”
Jason 
15th August 2026

Super ego….

​A super ego kills, 
You may feel euphoric, but there are no deals, 
No deals to help
No deals to make that side of you work
The world is crazy enough, day by day
It’s your higher power that has the final say. 

A super ego kills, 
You may feel powerful, strong and unstoppable 
Yet in this sadistic world, the efforts are NOT unflappable. 

A super ego destroys
It serves you nothing, 
Bring your higher power in, 
God has got this, in no one loses or wins. 

A powerful ego is a dangerous one
And people shall argue this is the only way, 
Yes, be confident, find your direction 
I tell you the truth… a ‘Super ego’ cannot meet any perfection. 

Jason
16th August 2026

Can’t do this alone

​A.A. Member and I was speaking to my sponsor, 
Surrendering to a power great than I, 
I was in despair and simply wanted to say goodbye. 

If that is you, please don’t give in
You will be okay, trust in the words of A.A.
And remember it’s okay to say how you truly feel, 
No judgement from here, but your sponsor and you would need to heal. 

You have to acknowledge patience
And time with others who are in the same boat, 
Life on life’s terms, and the bonus no one in the A.A. Rooms shall judge or gloat. 

You are uniquely you, 
You are made as you are;
If others complain about you loose ‘drinking’ mind,
God remains still, he is patient and through the programme of your higher power.. you shall find a ‘deep seated’ kind.

Jason
16th August 2026

Believe in yourself.

​When I hear my friend say: ‘I wish I could do that’?
Yet they don’t see the skills and talents they have today, 
They need to believe in themselves, so be patient, but then again that’s a attribute in itself
All things are possible, so what do you want? love, kindness, or never ending wealth.

Say you want it all? Then give it your best shot
But belief in you comes from a higher power to support, 
Spiritual growth is surrender and gratification, things which we often fought. 

I believe in you, but you need to do the work
I can encourage, love and be there to a point, 
It’s the love from your higher power which is hopeful and can anoint. 

Look at me, I thought I was unlovable
And in the past people have said this sort of thing, 
Yet it’s God who makes a decision in your life, that’s the sort of thing he does bring.

So believe in you
And discern before any decision you about to make, 
There must be belief in you, otherwise there is blindness from what you do fake.

Jason
15th August 2026

Happy birthday Claire 🎂

​You are a blessing 
And you are a friend, 
You are a sister, I shall encourage you to the very end. 

Have a wonderful day
Have a wonderful ‘new’ life, 
Be around those to elevate you, I will be part of that.. if you don’t mind?

You have been through a lot
Be patient, be kind to you.. you are the most important person there is
You are mother and a hope to others, a place you can’t ever dismiss. 

You have been on this journey for 61 years,
There is nothing else you need to fear, 
Surround yourself with light minded people, you have been through enough struggles in life
This is a beautiful birthday for my friend Claire, 
Who has always shown us kindness, love and plenty more to share. 

“Happy birthday  Claire.. λεβέντης μου“
Jason
15th August 2026