Finding your way through the mist

​You would have thought I would have turned the corner?
The last three years has been terribly angst,
I have been angry, sad and sometimes mildly content 
When actually in side I wanted to be hellbent. 

I wanted to hit someone
Or punch the wall until the bricks started the move, 
You shouldn’t underestimate me, not in the slightest 
Don’t treat my love for God as weak through any blindness.

I suffered grief and wanted my Dad back
But all I got was stupid remarks, 
I wanted to hit them, yet I stayed calm
When in my heart I want to cause harm.

You would have thought for all years I have been around 
Especially meeting God in my heart, which has been so profound.

This is not uncommon
And there is nothing anyone can do, 
people like myself, I would suggest leave us alone
My head and heart feels weighted like a stone.

Jason 
6th March 2026

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