Some people do.. and others don’t

​This disease is a killer,
You put yourself in front of a real life stage, and it’s called a ‘thriller’. 

I was drinking and thinking I was in total control
When in fact I lost myself and didn’t want to know. 

I have tried to do this my way… but I couldn’t 
I walked in the A.A. rooms and found out who I was,
At 53 and looking at the next page to turn
I thank the rooms of A.A. that I was able to be in a safe space to discern. 

I wanted death
I wanted it over, 
i didn’t care what others had to say as I would simply snap back
And if I felt vulnerable, then obviously that’s telling me there was something which I slacked.

I am here today, 18 months sober and I did it through the programme of the steps
This is my new life now… all I need to do now is open up and reflect. 

“Celebrating 18 months sobriety.”
Jason
9th May 2026