Fighting back… just for today…. (A.A. Poem)

​I knew I lost my way, 
Did I hurt others or myself?
I felt my distance going away from God,
I was struggling with addictions, 
Needed a drink to ease the woe
I wanted to go fast and as time went slow. 

I lost myself, 
Family weren’t at hand to help, 
They are “get up and get on with it people”
But I lost my Dad, my best friend, 
I did’t know how to cope or deflect attacks that I was unable to defend.

I was given a chance when I tried to take my life, 
I cried for help, as no could have done a thing,
People’s opinions landed on my deaf ears 
As all I wanted to do was to be at peace and lose my fears. 

My Family weren’t at all good
but saying that they are good people after all;
They don’t have the skill of empathy as their default is immediate solution
As all I felt at the time was struggles and inflicted retribution. 

Today, I am here by God’s grace
I am not 100% today but I am fighting with every ouch of breath,
As you are a child of God after all, despite the struggles you shall eventually receive rest.

Jason
8th July 2026