Wanted to pick up… but didn’t

​Who would have I disappointed? Myself of course!
And you know what? I came ‘this close’ for wanting a drink,
God stopped me.. by making me think.

I stopped, I almost called a fellow but I restrained instead, 
I wanted to continue on this sobriety journey, so I have worked hard for this.. so all well from these I am about to say and lay this past to bed. 

I tasted the drink in my mouth,
A relaxer… and a overwhelming craving,
I was all over the place and constantly wavering. 

I know the fellowship wouldn’t have judged me if I decided to slip, 
But I am staying with this God programme, the 12 steps will provide me with an almighty grip.

I avoided ‘this’ near miss 
I avoided because I spoke to God first, 
If I craved a drink, it wouldn’t be alcohol I’ve wanted to have thirst.

“Nearly… I didn’t.. just for today”
Jason
2nd October 2026