When you spiral

​It could come out of nowhere
This addictions game, 
I was brimming with confidence, going to the gym and had plenty of chat
Then my Dad passed away, I didn’t want to be around others, as I didn’t know where I was at.

You see, it’s about being with people you can relate to
People that you can give to, and receive during times of need, 
I knew these people weren’t for me, as I felt I was going to internally bleed.

It was the biggest fight of my life, 
A failed suicide attempt, by overdosing the injection of 180 units of fast insulin, 
As this was against God’s will, therefore I did the cardinal sin. 

Today, I am here, serving giving a little back
I am back at the gym, retained my smile when I before I wanted to curl up and die, 
Today I am thankful to God, AA and the steps as I shall now say goodbye.

Recovery is never ending but love wins every day.
Jason
1st April 2026