Being left alone

I don’t want sympathy

I don’t desire pain,

Yet there are times I know refuting others causes me to go insane.

Sometimes I do need a drink

A somber moment that may entice,

I try to be there for others, as generally I know I am well meaning and can be nice.

I push back because of betrayal 

I push back because words and questions cause my mind to spiral,

Then the contradiction in that, I do need to learn

As without questions how does anyone discern?

I push back because it’s safe

I don’t need connection with anyone;

Especially those who think their wind ups are funny!

They don’t share the same sense of humour as I do where their presence can only be god lead; as I soon be running.

Jason

2nd June 2025