Lies left behind

I have lied...

I have been resented 

I have been so angry from the lack of approval I craved

I felt unwanted and a fleshy slave.

I was hurting 

In almighty pain,

I wanted to cause violence 

What would that have done,

Turn me further insane.

I am open, often interpreted as mad,

Frequently crying and feeling bad

I never killed, but did take drugs to release the burning hole 

I actually needed god, he was never my foe.

I wanted more than I could manage

I wanted love, hugs to hear others care,

Now I have the father in heaven at the bottom of my heart 

And that shall always remain there.